Back from chalet. Very tired. Left hand muscle damn pain due to not sleeping well. Ate quite alot and I know I'm putting on weight. Urgh! Taking care of the 2 babies really not easy especially coaxing them to sleep. Okay, tired now. Bye.
13 more days to birthday and freedom. Just bear with it. For the next one week, just fucking study the whole book of Menu Planning and Food Cost. Phew~ Wonder when will this nightmare end. But before that gonna go out with boyfriend one day and get that sister-clinton birthday present. Ehh sis, you should be happy that during my exams period I still go out and get present for you hor! Make sure you return me one present on my birthday.
cryin` all my tears out as my eyes becomin` blind
nothing feels the same cuhz i`m so used to being held
friends would be concerned of me but never would i tell
that i was gettin` hurt by the only one i ever loved
the one who was created to be sent to me from above
i still don`t know what went wrong, or why we had to end
not only were you my baby but you were my best friend
and now it seems like i`ve lost everything i ever had
everything worth livin` for, flyin away from my hands
livin` everyday, questioning myself the same thing
you left without a reason, left me here reminicin
xoxoxo
remember the days we used to share
when you told me that always nd forever you would care
now you left me alone, holding on to the phone
hopin` things would go back to how it was long ago
tell me why
what made you decide to leave me back
tell me why
there was nothing that you, you didn`t have
tell me why
back when we was younger, we both each made a promise
tellin` each other that we would always be honest
of how we felt, what we thought, and soon that day came
you took my hand, asked me out, and walked together in the rain
we spent hours on the fone, we were close like white on rice
playin around, asking me to one day be your wife
when they saw you, they saw me standing right next to you
matchin` everyday, matchin` clothes, matchin` hat and shoes
always dedicating songs we hear to each other
always thinking that all of those days would last forever
tell me why everything had to come to this
you dont understand, there`s so much things that i miss
whatever happened to the promises you made
whatever happened to the future you wanted to create
now it`s all down the drain, all the time we spent, wasted
whenever we had problems, we had always fixed and saved it
so why the change of heart, tell me why are we apart
when you had told me before that you loved me since the start
tell me why you suddenly wanna leave our past behind
baby all i`m asking you is to please tell me why
(tell me why, tell me why)
theres so much pain for me to hide inside
but you don`t even notice so theres no use to hide
i miss the feeling u gave me wen you looked into my eyes
and now when i remember the moment all i do is cry
the day you left, baby, you took my dreams with you
i can`t even rebuild them cuhz i`m standin alone without you
stop giving me all the stories, cuhz i know that they're lies
jus open your heart, look into my eyes, and tell me why
xoxoxo
Practical yesterday was screwed up. Fuckkkk. Share cab with Lydia, Cynthia and Louis then go out again and meet boyfriend & co with Edwin. Qiaoyan gonna go back China, never come back. So we went to the airport and sent her off. Really don't bear to see her go. Afterall I'm in the same primary and secondary school with her. Supper at Yaku Kaya, slack, cab home. Reach home already 2.30am but still can't sleep. Most of my money are spend on taking cab!! Omgg.
为何还如此执著
为你付出所有
你竟不顾一切就走
明知道爱你只是继续错
为何还如此脆弱
已经习惯有你
已经不能将你摆脱"
Sorry to make you dissapointed. You won't know how hard is it to quit. The urge and temptation keep coming. But for you, I'll try. Because I really like you. (:
2 projects down. Now left with 2 practical, 3 theory papers and I'm free. Wohoo! Yes yes, 13 December. Best is its saturday. Boyfriend specially took leave just to celebrate the big day with me. Haas. & sister birthday on next friday. Another big hole in pocket. Very long never get together with them already. Miss them loadsssss.
That's why you go away - MLTR
"I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know "
One of my favourite English song. The sweet melody really melts my heart. (:
& Shayne Ward gonna be my favourite singer. His song lyrics really damn superb.
Just cab back from Grace house doing project. But now still must continue doing it. *Faint* Never ending project work. But its better than F&N coursework anyway. Can't wait for the chalet this coming friday. Damn. Hope I'm not putting on anymore weight.
Good night peopleeeeeeeeeeee. I'm going to rush my project now.
& leave a tag at my tagbox. It looks so fking dead.
My blog is dying ever since I've lost my precious handphone. No more pictures uhh. And my viewership is dropping. Blah!
I hate gingerbread smell. Damn horrible. Anybody who puts it in his/her mouth is an idiot. Both projects will be due on next friday. Sian! And now I must also find a dessert for Elaborate Sweets practical exam. Nabei. So much things how to complete by tml? And I should be going to Sophia's birthday party at a pub at Boat Quay but I never go. Wth! Exams are tying me down. =(
Happy Birthday Sophia! (:
Yesterday IS was damn fun. The whole class is mad. Okays, and I think I'm the one who went crazy first. Drew the hospital cross or whatever shit on the chef paper cap and pretend I'm a nurse. With black marker some more. Cut out those paper cardboard that are used for gingerbread house and went around sticking people. Ehh, I'm being childish. See Grace and Huiwen blog for the lame photos. Wahahaha.
Feel very headache after reaching home. Pop 2 pills, chat on phonee and sleep. Late for IS for 20mins. I should stop the habit of going late to school.
Yes, I've changed my blog url. (:
I've got 13 unknown MSN contacts since I've joined WLNY again on friday night. *Faint* Best is most of them are 20 years old plus cannnnn!! Not intrested to know them. Lols! And and and, boys top 3 favourite question to ask is, "Are you still a virgin? How many ex bf you have? Are you single or attached now?" Walaoooo ehh. Bui tahan. Nowadays boys are getting more 38 uhh. Is like so none of their business. =.=
Ohh, so random. Okays, going to research my Menu Planning now. Byee.
1. Meet with boyfriend AGAIN and walk around Orchard .
2. Smoking is hard to quit . Sian .
3. Gonna get new mascara soon . Fake lash is damn freaking hard to put it PROPERLY .
4. Hate girls with blue eyeshadow . It looks so fucking auntie to me .
5. Need new bags & shoes . But need a new handphone more .
6. My birthday reaching in about a month ! Heeheehee .
7. I want to get rid of my flabby arms , legs and 3 month pregnant stomach .
8. I'm going put on makeup to school everyday . If not I will look horrible with a dead face .
9. I've got violent crazy classmates like Grace & Cynthia .
10. School vending machine doesn't sells souffle . Lols .
Don't try to temp me by asking me to buy things or going to places that need money . Wait till I buy new handphone first then say . Damn tired now . Bye .
I hate my friends for bluffing me!! Huiwen and Cynthia gang up and bluff me that school has new vending machine that sells souffle. But the innocent cum stupid me really believe them. Yayayaya, if its really like this, next time we don't need to bake anymore. Just buy it. And Sophia says school smoking corner has vending machine that sell ciggrates. But it doesn't accept notes, just coins. Lol. Who will bring 10 $1 coins to school just to buy cigg? -.-
Sweeter than you, sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover
More precious than you, more precious than you"
From monday till today, Shatec has this blood donation drive and Huiwen donated her 450ml blood! Lol. Such a brave girl. I think I will faint mannxz. A few years back went for some blood test and doctor says my brothers including my dad have the H duno what low blood shit thing so we cannot donate. And also if I want to donate, I'm still sweet 16. Need parental consent. Wahahaha. (:
Meetup with boyfriend after her work and we went to Bugis. Walk over to Sim Lim to see hp. And C905 is not really a very chio phone. So should I get SE T700 or China Hello Kitty hp???
In school now, waiting till 2.45 for Food Cost to start. Yawns*
Meet up with boyfriend & co yesterday after school. Tmall, smoke, slack. Then went to Paya Lebar with boyfriend and her mum in the evening. Brought new foundation and a hand duno what shit for $51. *Faint* No money for new hp already. =(
Ytd take SE brochure & saw this very cool phone, C905. Omg! 8.1mp camera. Boyfriend say we 5 of them shld get the phone tgt. Guess the price gonna be very nice also. =.=
1. On phone with Xinyi the 38 till 3am last night.
2. Cafe Cartel for lunch with Cynthia, Louis & Yongcheng.
3. Didn't buy anything for myself from M'sia ytd.
4. Collected my sim card from Starhub today. So I'm now using back my 9271****.
5. Think I'm going to buy some act cute Hello Kitty china hp soon cos its cheaper.
6. Finally let him know how I'm feeling already. Phew~
7. I'm going to be the girl I used to behave in the past.
8. I have a thousand reasons to smile. (:
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you"
Last night was on phone with Xinyi the 38. Very long never chat with her already. She's forever the same, pervert like me. The hum sup po! Lols. Miss you 38! Got time go out together okays. Don't say you lazy. :D
Going to JB tml for one day shopping. Abit don't feel like going but its shopping. Damn. I'm going to relieve all the unhappiness in my heart by spending my dad's money. Teeheehee.
GPA for last semester was 3.38. Clever, stupid or luck? Never studied at all and still can go shopping with those 38's. Really miss those sec sch days when we hang out together. Compared to now, I'm such a happy & carefree girl in the past.
& Byebye.
I don't know why my tears are on the way flowing out when I've read a girl blog about her friend died in a car accident. I can feel the pain and torture she's going through. Its so hard to believe your good friend just died without saying a goodbye to you. I wonder how my friends will feel if I suddenly leave them one day.
Will they miss me? Will they bother to come to my wake and see me for the last time no matter how busy they are? Will they always remember my smile and the girl who always talk so much craps with them? But I don't want them to cry. I know I will want to see their beautiful smile for the last time. I want to remember each and everyone of you. I want them to be strong. I want them to remember I an angel in their eyes and not a irritating girl who always complain.
And to my both parents. Sorry if I'm a very bad girl who always disobey what you all said. Sorry that I always talked back and argue with you. I'm not a good daughter. I never wished your happy birthday or mother's/father's day before in life. But on my birthday, your will always buy me a cake and celebrate with me. To my dearest dad. Thank you for working so hard supporting me and buy what I want even though how bad I treated you. Thank you mummie, for giving birth to me. Sorry to let you suffer for 9mths and end up having a unfilial daughter. You both will always be my best parents. In my next life, I will still want to be your daughter. I love you both.
People, you are all important to me. I really treasure each and everyone of you. Even though I may still act like a little girl, but I will learn to grow up. If one day I'm gone forever in your life, may you click on Nov'08 archieve and read this entry. But don't tear too much okays. And do let my parents read it too. I want them to know how much I love them.
Unknowingly, my tears had stared to flow down my face when I'm posting this. Used up alot of tissue paper already. Time to sleep and reflect what good things I've done in my entire life. Good night.
I'm still very bui song with my hp getting lost. I always wake up feeling very angry. Bloody slut. Let me know who she is I'll cut and slit open her vagina. *middle finger*
Ever since I lost my phone, nothing goes well. Having a damn bad mood swing. I don't know why. That phone is too precious to me already. It contains videos of boyfriend & co slacking under void decks & baked product in school. Wait till I'm free I'll go down to the police station and make a report. Although its useless, but make a report also song wad. Maybe she sell my phone and police and let the police trace her down. Now I see all girls studying DHM & DTM sibei bui song. The slut is in one of them!!!
Very tired now after standing 7hrs in school. Made logcake & I can't take pictures with it. Fuck. Although Huiwen took it, but I'm lazy to upload anyway. Share cab with Lydia home. Bye.
I'm going to curse and swear again.
Shit that hp stealer. She's such a slut. She damn pro la. Steal it when I'm changing. To get my hp without contact cost ard $500+ okays. Ccb. She really tan tio lor. Now my contacts & photos are gone. Get replacement for sim card also no use. So what if Starhub gave me $100 voucher to buy a new hp. Even the lousiest hp cao cao also need $200 leh. And I'm using such a good phone. Who will want to downgrade their phone sia. Nabei. Gonna kill this bitch if I who is she. I know my phone has 5 mega pix camera. Please don't pollute it with your disgusting slut face pictures. Damn. I miss my ke ai de hp alot. He's my boyfriend and meant alot to me. I don't wanna use those stupid spare phone I have at home!! Any 20 kind souls willing to give me $10 each to buy new phone??
Hope this slut..
1. Get buang by motobike when she cross the road.
2. Choke on fishbones and fishball.
3. Heels get trap & broke in the drain.
4. Slip & fall when walking.
5. Drunk & get rape by bangalah.
6. My phone get hang when she's using it.
7. Walk under void deck and a flowerpot hit her head.
8. If she's smoking in school, let the bird shit drop on her head.
9. Cannot graduate from Shatec.
10. Let the school find out and catch her. Immediate 20 d.p & get expelled.
Sorry if I'm very mean. I know there will be karma if you say people bad things. But this slut steal my hp first hor!! How to forgive these kind of ppl. Worst is I don't even know who she is. -.-
I also know my English very broken in this whole entry. But I really qi dao bao leh. No time to correct it. I just type what I'm thinking. Sorry my dear friends, your ears have to suffer my kb-ing for the whole day. =x
My hp kena stolen in school. Fuck that slut/bitch/whore. Confirm guarantee chop chop is a girl that stole it. Lost it during when changing for practical. Tmd de qian da!! Hp is the most important thing to me and bo dai bo ji its lost. Wtf!! My cute little touch screen Silver LG Viewty with pink casing, a little dented at the back and my name keychain is gone, FOREVER!! I need a new phonee!! And I still haven terminate my lineeee. Walaoooo. Suay. No wonder ytd my right 'yan pi' keep jumping. So this is the suay thing that happened. Omggggxxzz!!!! CCB. Den oso very funny. Nvr steal my mp3 or my clear casing for putting money and cards. 438!!
I'll blog and scold again when I'm at home. Bye.
Happy 17th Birthday to Ngaiyun-brother!
Hope you will have a great day in school with your friends. Rmb to put some eggwhite on your face for free facial. Heehee. ;)
"I gave you all you desired
All that you needed
Boy I provided
I let you into my head
Into my bed
And that's a privilege"
IS for thursday is Chocolate Feullentine cake. Nice to eat and nice to grow fat. The whole cake is full of chocolate so can you imagine how fattening it is. But must wait till monday then can un-mould the cake. Hope I won't start digging the cake like a hungry ghost. Its a very sinful thing. =/
Yesterday celebrated Ngaiyun-brother birthday at East Coast. Monday then is his birthday but we celebrated early. Boyfriend & co with Qiaoyan and Edwin;Manzoo. Did the usual things we normally slack. Drink, cards and bla. They brought Raspberry Vodlka. Smell nicee but taste like medicine. Yuckks. Reach home at 4am. Best is my mum thought I reach home ard 12+. Heeheehee.
Forget what this is called. Its the base of the cake & its damn freaking nice!
Cake!
Piping the Mini choux paste.
Edwin; Manzoo!
Clinton-sister house.
From his bedroom view. In real life the lights are really damn chio.
Brother first surprise muffin cake. The cute elephant is a ring!
Underpass to East Coast.
Lagoon hawker center.
More pictures at Boyfriend & Manzoo hp. Will upload more soon. :)
Madeline. 
