To my dearest Grace-partner and Huiwen-sister.
Don't be so pissed off lah! Little children doesn't know what they're doing. So cannot blame them. Concentrate on tml Menu Planning test ba. ;)
I will be strong, even if it all goes wrong.
Ever since I've start school in Shatec, I've gain back the 2-3kg of fats which I've lost during holidays. Tmd! Eat pastries, cakes, fast food and bla. One recipe of French Buttercream consist of 500g butter!! Walao. How can don't grow fat? So now I've got to spend so much money on slimming products. Lol. Hope it helps baaa.
Damn. I'm just a useless girl. My words are bigger than my actions. Talk so big, but nothing come out. Its time to do some self-reflection. When I say I'm gonna forget about you, I really mean it. But each time you talk to me, I just fall hard. I turn soft. I don't wanna let go. I'm afraid to lose. My heart hurts. You're twisting me around. I don't know what to do. I'm lost. Someone please slap me awake. I hate putting up a strong front. I want to cry my heart out. I need a shoulder to lean on. I'm weak. And the worst part is, we're used to having each other, not love. Fooyoh! Madeline Goh, you can seriously go bang your fucking brainless head on the wall already.
Don't know why the fuck I'm posting such things on blog. So unlike me. Hmm, whatever. I just need to have my boyfriend & co its enough. Muahaha. My life will be nothing without them. Uhh, and also my ex classmates. Teehee.
Walao! Why is my tagbox so gam pua dead huh? Where have everybody gone to? V&Z again!! Omg!! I can list the name of these people who always view and zhao. ALWAYS I mean. Cos, I have Nuffnang. Wahahaha. Ohh, positive & negative comments are all accepted. Say I'm fat, ugly, short and bla. It all doesn't affect me. Cos, I have high self esteem. Uhh, reminds me of Adam's Khoo workshop. And also I'm used to friends calling me names and all these. Even the most unpleasant words I've also heard before. So everything became very natural. Infact I should thank God for giving me such wonderful friends. They make me stronger to what I'm now. No longer a young girl who sits down and cry for nothing. Only true friends will say more bad and negative things rather than por you saying your good things. Laughs! All grown up already. :D
Gonna lock myself up in my room later in the afternoon doing Food Cost homework, study Menu Planning & POB. All are so damn impt lor! Not like sec sch, don't like the subject den don't need to study. Sian. Test are coming up. Gosh!
Cousin gf chiwawa dog. Damn. I don't know where I get the courage getting so near to this freak. Played with her, step on her tail, beat her. Lols! But she's very shy. She knows I'm taking picture of her and she always turn her head away very quickly. Lalalala~ Whatever! I think I'm crazy. Gonna watch Ming Zhong liaooo. Ahyi lend me the vcd. Teehee. Byexbuai.
Friday, Bugis with Grace & Huiwen after school. Lessons were short. Brought 3 pair eyelash, black eyelash glue and one Dorothy Perkins kisslock pouch. $9 only. Cheap, cheap. Uhh, and we took neoprints too. Haas. The eyelashes are making me damn pek cek. I don't know how to put. Omg!
Just now go Bugis again with boyfriend & co except Clinton-sister. Never brought anything. Urgh! Go out never buy things very bui song. But boyfriend gave me a bottle of body mist she brought from M'sia. Okay lor, consider I got bring something home. Lalalala~
Pepper lunch with Grace & Huiwen.
Shopping items for the whole of this week. Seriously broke. =/
Byeexz.
1. I spend $62.30 for the past 2 days on 2 pairs of Perlini Silver earrings, one necklace chain, two pendants, one hp strap, one pasta mania lunch and one Mac delivery lunch. I'm broke!!
2. Practical for this week are damn freaking longggg.
3. I have a bad habit of tripping myself in school corridoor with my crocs shoes.
4. M by Mariah Carey perfume smells damn horrible.
5. M)phosis doesn't sells the black wristlet I want anymore. :(
6. Food Cost is killing me once again. Why am I so bloody stupid in doing maths?
7. I'm having bad mood swings for the past few days.
8. I can't stop my nose from smelling my Escada Moonsparkle. Feel like spraying everything inside my mouth. Lol.
9. Feel that I'm an irritating ass and more people are begining to hate me. Uhh, whatever.
10. Off to watch Hotshot. Bye.
"能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我不能够 不能够不爱了"
"请告诉他 我不爱他
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉他 我还想他
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答"
吴克群 & 林俊杰 new album are coming out soon! Wahahahaha.
Gonna download them soon. :D
I'm broke!! I need more money!!
Hate my hp bill. =/
I'm having a big head today. Sibei unlucky can!! 11 plus, mummie kb me wake up already. I never bake todaeee. No ingredients how to bake? Anyway, this is not the main thing. I spend my whole afternoon cracking my brain doing the Food Cost homework. And many many many things happened. Here it goes.
One bangalah at my house downstairs don't know do what shit thing, keep banging and knocking alot of wooden planks till it made a sibei loud sound. This goes on for around 15mins? My head start to hurts. Then my mum teach my younger brother ting xie with a damn loud voice and this last for don't know how many hours. Ohyea, I'm use to it anyway. My block opposite got people drilling things onto the wall or whatever shit they're doing. Tmd!! Really 气到爆 lor!! I'm trying really hard to do my maths. Make so much noise for the whole afternoon till I can't do it. And I'm having a really bad headache. Wtf these people are trying to do?? Its maths I'm doing lehh. My CMI subject. And this is so accounts with so much caculation. End up I only do 1 question and leave the other 2 blank. Really no mood to doooo. Lie on bed and nap for awhile. Because of this, I didn't go to Starbucks with boyfriend & co. Ewwkkk. 气死我了!!!
Anyway,
Happy 17th Birthday, Lim Jia Jie! :D
I want Manchester United white jersey.
I want those perfume listed at my wishlist.
I want my Havaianas to arrive asap.
I want him to treat me better.
I want to get Fred Perry bag & polo tee.
I want more Perlini Silver accessories.
(: (: (: (: (:
2 projects coming up!
Menu planning and Gingerbread house!! Sian!! Gonna be REAL BUSY SOON.
Its weekends again! Still haven plan what to do. Maybe tml evening go Starbucks slack with boyfriend & co. But mummie wants me to bakeee tml morning. Wth! I very lazy lehh.
My hp bill came today. $74.56!! Omgg!! I got a nice nagging session. Blame me for using the internet without knowing it cost so much. And my outgoing calls adds up to 198mins??!! Lol!! The extra 98mins cost $28 le hor! Walan ehh. Okay, I've learn my lesson. Never call ppl for more than 5 mins. Hope my dad pays the bill lor. If not I've got to fork out my own money. =(
Yong cheng, Huiwen & Jasmine at the back. Lols.
Don't know how Graceee take until so blur. But very cool uhh. My longer part of hair got colourrr. :D
MacDonals during break time anyoneee?
1. My ATM card almost got stuck in the machine at Bukit Batok MRT station.
2. Mummie told me ytd that one of my blouse got stolen. =.=
3. Pimples, pimples and more pimples are popping out on my face. Omggxxzz!
4. I want to go to other outlets of Perlini's Silver to look at their collection of earrings.
5. When can I repierce my nose for the 3rd time againn???
6. I hate Food Cost Control. Its driving me crazy.
7. I'm growing fatter, fatter and fatter.
8. Its been 4 days since I've touch any stick.
9. Craving for 奶油螃蟹 & Starbucks Mocha frapp now!!
10. I'm going to watch 命中注定我爱你 soon.
Please be mindful of your words when you're talking. Don't be so blunt and direct till it hurts a person feeling. Especially when the person is, your close friend. (:
These few days very free so can keep blogging yea. Heehee. I know there are people coming to my blog everyday. Nuffang is great! But they click, read and zhao without leaving a tag. Omg! Okay, enough of kaobei-ing. I'm damn tiredddd after standing for the whole afternoon.
I forget what is the food name we baked today. But it looks like custard right? Think is called creme brulee or something. Left my recipe sheet in the locker. -.-
Mango creme brulee topped with mango cubes and raspberry.
Caramelized brown sugar on top with the help of blowtorch!
Chef's creation. From left to right:
Vanilla creme brulee, red beans & sago, green tea creme brulee, mango brulee.
The red beans looks like some shit and the green tea burlee looks like some green slimy thingy. Eeewk. I hate green tea!!
My Perlini's Silver cleaning kit finally arrived! ^^
"Why don't you love me
The way I loved you
It feels so crazy
Cause I dunno
What I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
Cause I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna
Stick around
Then, baby
Forget about me"
Eclairs baked in school today.
Last thursday apple almond flan before baking.
After product. :)
"Wish that I Could move on
Can't let go It's too strong
Just like that And then you're gone
Is this how You wanted it to be
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears Right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery"
Sister condo toilet. Very cool uhh. Majiam at 5 star hotel. Haas.
2 sisters! :D
Demo lessons.
Love them. ;)
"你说我像一个孩子 要一辈子
做你的新娘子
烛光里为我讲故事 温暖一屋子
你打开幸福的盒子 就一下子
泪水温暖地放肆
许我在你的生命里 傻傻住 一辈子"
I'm in school rotting nowww. Next lesson starts at 2.45. Omg. Still got another 45mins to go. I'm boredddd.
Yesterday after school went home and then meet boyfriend, Nic and Grace at 201 bus stop. One xia suay thing happened. Not gonna post up here. Lols. We went to Clinton-sister condo at East Coast. Ngaiyun-brother then joined us later. Play the poker card game we played on sat night. Diao luh. Another xia suay thing happened AGAIN. Slack till 7.30 den go off. Next day still got school so must go home early. Sian!
Feel that I'm always enjoying and slacking my life. Going out in the evening, Starbucks with boyfriend, and of cos shopping till I'm broke. What if my dad is poor uhh? Omg. I think I will die. No handphone, no mp3, no psp, no aircon, no food, no computer, no shopping, no crabs. Okay, my feihua alot. Now economy very bad, so must try to save a little. Off for lessons. Byeexz.
Omg! Don't know why my head damn freaking pain. Side effect of not smoking? Not so kua zhang leh. Should be never sleep well these few days. & I'm not going to smoke my money in the air anymore. One puff means headache one time. Jialat. Gonna call boyfriend & co now. Bye.
Friends are more important than anything else. (:
I can never hit the pubs. I don't know how to drink liquor/beer/wine. The smell really piss me off. Ngaiyun-brother brought this 40% Bacardi. Even Nicholas-sister mix it with coke I still can smell the very strong alcohol. Its disgusting okay. And then Grace come afterwards. We played a game using poker cards. Damn funny siol! Sister drink damn alot till he got drunk and vomit. But I can't help him home with them. Mummy damn bui song with me for going out every evening and reaching home "late". Lols. I want freedom!!!!
Overdue photos taken with boyfriend, sisters and brother at Orchard on Tuesday.
UNO! Omggxxzz~!! The green part of the box looks so much like Gucci Envy Me 2 box. Haas.
Yesterday ton at boyfriend house. Went over at 10 plus then ngaiyun-brother come down and slack. Stupid nicholas-sister stay at home sleep don't want come down. Okays, I know he is tired. Sit at void deck till 11 plus then went up boyfriend house. Had 3 sticks of ice mint within 2 hours till my head damn pain. We called MacDonals delievery and it came within 15 mins. 5kg gained. Slept soon after eating. Omg!!
Reach home around 3 plus and I start doing my Food Cost homework. Bet this is the first time I worked so hard on Maths. So accounts lor. Was struggling in school yesterday when doing it but now I get hold on it, damn easy already. Haas.
Later at night gonna meet them again. Got to bus till 201 there. Brother gonna bring liquor. Wahahahaha.
WHY AM I NOT LIVING NEAR TMART OR 201???!!!! HIAX.
Practical in afternoon till 7.30pm. Omg! Train to Pasir Ris and walk to Downtown East. Meet 2 sisters and brother. Boyfriend came down after that. Because the whole 4N2'07 is having a class gathering dinner at Sakura, saw them at the arcade also. Tmd!! I can't go because I have schoooool. And also don't want to waste money. Slack at one of the void deck and cab homeee. Thats all. Byeexz.
I understand why the fook I can't access to hotmail already. Bcos of some bloody Singtel problems lor. -.-
Just now after school go down Orchard meet boyfriend, sisters and brother. Fun going out with them. Next day got school so can't stay out long. Sian! I have my first stick of cigg in my whole life today! Wahaha. Always wanted to learn but I very stupid. And in one night I actually "blow" 3 sticks of UNO away. Niceee onee madelineeee! Make sure you don't get addicted to it uhh. Loads of pictures to upload. Wait till boyfriend send me ba. Byeeexxzzzzz.
WHY THE HECK I CANT OPEN AND DELETE EMAILS HUH?
Yay! I've ordered Havaianas flippies for $26 online! Half price of what NUM is selling. Wahahaha. Happy sio! Aim it since sec 3? Never get it cos its really damn expensive. $49.90 for a pair of flippies. Oh gosh!
Alright, I'm fucking cash tight and need money desperately. I want alot of things!! My bday is in 2 months time. Please save abit more and look at "my wants" list. Thank euu the beri much.
Happy 17th Birthday Haowei! :)
Last night talk on phone with Nengli-boyfriend, Ngaiyun-brother, Nicholas-sister and Clinton-sister. I love my sisters! Lol. Crap from 1 plus to 5am. From OCH to red house, clubbing, toning, drinking, smoking and sex. Haah! Miss them so much. :D
Never leave your hp in vibration or ringing mode when sleeping. Damn. First is part time bf called when I'm sleeping on tuesday night. Really damn tired so I slept at 8pm. At 12.30am, hp start to sing song. The second time is Clinton prank call at 2am with Nicholas voice I think. Too tired to bother who is the person. Omg!! Kill them uhh! Sleep is damn important to me hor!
Fruit flan cake bake in school today. Damn ugly cos of limited fruits provided. Eeewwk.
Every friday gonna be a long and tiring day. 8.15am practical, 2.15pm theory till 7pm. Tmd! Can die. But now saturday no school le. Wohoo! Gonna enjoy myself. :D
Madeline. 
