Tuesday, April 29, 2008 ; 11:11 PM♥
Saying a hello to single life. I've always thought I'm strong, but my tears just fall unexpectedly when watching the 7pm show, Ah Wang. Like he've said, there's this big rock in the heart, very hard to remove it. Its best to let go of the person if you want him to be happy. Let him be a free bird and fly away to a place which is more sutiable for him. Of course I'm not crying till my both eyes were swollen. Just a few drop of tears rolling down on my cheeks. Like how I've cried when watching dramas. Really damn sad lor. But no matter how sad I'm, I still want you to be happy. Your happiness is what I ask in return. I will not blame or hate you. Will miss you always boy. You're still the best to me. :)
I've finally get to feel the feeling of being heartbroken again. The last time was 3 years back with my first boyfriend. The feeling was damn horrible. Was feeling very helpless. All I can do is keep crying non stop. Scary~ That's why I've learn to stay strong.
Shall blog something nice and sweet from the oven. I took these cake pictures from baking books that I've borrowed from library. Don't you think they're too sweet to resist already? I'm looking forward to the day I've bake a perfect cake which is edible. And of course baking for my new boyfriend. Teehee. Baking issin't as easy as what you've think. It takes time and must stay infront of the hot oven for long hours. Eeewwwkk. No aircon some more. Enjoy it! ;)
They look so yummy!! Strawberries and chocolate. Not to forget tiramisu and cheesecake!! I love tiramisu as it has a light alcohol taste. Taste bitter at first but slowly it will turn sweet. But I would like to try baking macarons and cupcakes. Macaroons are like mini french hamburgers. I've never taste it before as its quite expensive. Hardly see it at bakeries and I think its only avaliable at hotel as its hard to bake these mini hamburgers. From chocolate, caramel, orange, blackforest etc..
This is how macaroons look like! Colourful issin't?
Cupcakes!! Sibei chio arh!! You can create loads of patterns on top. ^^
Monday, April 28, 2008 ; 11:37 PM♥
Very soon we will bid goodbye. Good things doesn't last. They just come and go quickly. Will respect your decision. This time round I'm a bad person. I don't like things to drag for a long period of time. I don't want to escape, that's why I'm facing reality. All the best in your future. You will definitely find someone 100 times better than me. :)
Saturday, April 26, 2008 ; 2:10 AM♥
I've received an email from somebody reguarding about the braclet. It can be found at some shops at Far East. Thanks babe. But I will not go down to Orchard just because of one bracelet. One of my cousin work at a office at Far East, so maybe can ask her to help me look out for it. I'm never a hardworking person. :D
I hate it when my dad keep saying why I never go Sec 5 and landed in some kuku private school. Wakao. From the start, I've never intend to study Sec 5. Waste my time only. I'm not those people who will keep study study study. I enjoy going to school, but I've never enjoy studying! I hate maths, chemistry, social studies, history. But suprisingly, I still can pass in N level. Cao cao also have a 4. Hehe. The only lesson I like is F&N. Although its boring, I still love it. ;)
Have you people ever cried in your dreams? Well, its my first time when I woke up just now in the afternoon. I remember I was semi awake. And I almost scream and cry very loud. But I control myself. Its very scary lor! I've forgotten what I've dream, but there are tears flowing out. Feel like I'm going to die soon. I'm afraid to die. I still want to live up to 80 years old.
Friday, April 25, 2008 ; 1:19 AM♥
I tell you, I'm very sad now lor! Cheebye. I feel like killing myself. Money can't buy you some things like love, friendship etc.. It also can't buy you limited edition things. Fuck.
You tell me, how can I get these in shops?? Where can I find them? Especially the bangle!! I fuckingly love it lor! When I ask the blogshop owner whether she has backup items, she say don't have. Nabei. I really want to cry. Sibei chio lor. How to resist. If anyone know where can get these kind of bangles, please tell me. I really love it. =(
As for the snowflake necklace, I can get it in spree. But I don't like to wait for 1 month or so to get my items. By the time I already not intrested in it liao. The Love necklace, I know shops do sell it if I'm pro in finding. But I'm very lazy. Both necklace I want it in GOLD colour. I've got too much silver at home already. Wear till sian. I'm a very GOLD person now. That's why my url is madelinee-goldd. (:
That's the advantage of online shopping. You just bank transfer and wait patiently for the item to arrive in your mailbox. But some blogshoppers very cb one. They run away with your money and claim that they've post out your item. But never happen to me before. Teehee. So must be careful. Must have trust with each other. The best is to befriend with them, add them in MSN and talk!! Get their handphone number and everything. :D
Wednesday, April 23, 2008 ; 1:18 AM♥
I suddenly have the urge to come and blog all these shit. Read it if you want. Blogging is a way to relieve stress. :D
A complete woman is one who gets married and give birth to babies. I want to get married and settle down asap. I don't know why. I'm looking forward to the day I'm pregnant. Babies are gifts from God. I know the pain of giving birth will be 1000 times more painful than cramps, but its still worth it. The joy that the baby give cannot be express and describe with words. Whether its a boy or a girl, I will still love them. (:
But the question now is, who in the world will want to marry me and have baby with me??!!! How to have baby when there isin't any sperm come knocking onto my egg. And I only want to get married with the guy I love. Which girl in the world will want to marry somebody which she doesn't have feelings?
Next, soon I won't be living at Tampines anymore. Damn. Very sad lor! My mum ask me to live with my ahyi at Bukit Batok when school starts. Gam pua sian. Its going to be a year. Hope attatchment will be at town so I can move back to my house.
I don't like living in the west. Going to town is very troublesome. From Bukit Batok must take train to Jurong East and then change train. Nevermind. In the west, there will be alot of bangalah and m'sians. To be honest, I'm very racist. Alot of factories are at Jurong there so need to face these kind of people. Bangalah is confirm hate one lah. But as for m'sians, cos my uncle married a useless m'sian wife, so I hate lor. With bangalah, means I will have to be very careful and must always look out for them. I even plan to make one "molester & rapist spray". I will add sugar, spices and everything nice. So powerpuff boys will be form! Okay, I know very lame. Chilli badi, dynamo, dettol, urine, soya sauce, beer etc.. Whatever that is in liquid form I will just add and put in a small bottle. Den when somebody try to molest me, I just spray into their eyes. Hahaha! Think already I also get excited.
Not sure if west side has got alot of stray cats. I tell you, they're the most irritating pest in the world. All cats should perish!! Why government don't have programme like "Removing all the cats in your estate so you won't get irritated or frighten by them!" I'm a anti cats person. Imagine you're eating at a coffee shop. Then suddenly you feel something furry at your legs there. That pair of very fierce eyes keep looking at you. Fcuk. This is the most frightening experience I've ever get. I can never eat in peace at kopitiam and my legs will always be on the chair. If one day somebody come taking a cat and chase after me, I will kill him!!!!!!!!! Hope tonight won't have nightmare with cats. If not I can die in my dreams. -.-
Monday, April 21, 2008 ; 11:56 PM♥
Go back to school and collect my N and O level cert today. I still find it unbelievable to get my best 3 for 8 points. Lol. I'm not trying to hao lian, but really lor. I slack, I never study, I don't do homework. Well, to me its luck. I thought I'm going to get at least 12 points. God really bless me. But I didn't get a one for F&N. Sad. Even Desmond also don't believe I can get the same points with him. Hahaha. My answer will be, because I'm clever! ;)
Anyway, I'm going to quit the job already. I really cannot take it. Its killing me everyday. Everyday come back at 11, need to remove makeup and eat dinner. Yes, I eat my dinner during this time. =S
My new love, hair straightener! The heating part is only 1cm lor, so its a mini one. Its so damn good for my natural curled hair at the side. No matter how long I blow dry, it still wont stay straight. Damn ugly. With this, it will be a great help! ;)
My brain nowadays keep going: Keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love. I keep bleeding, I keep keep bleeding love...
Lol. The song really damn nice!! Watch the video here!!!
Saturday, April 19, 2008 ; 10:50 PM♥
My keyboard sot, now using on screen. Pek cek la!
Alot to complain about the job. But forget it, lazy to press. Request for off on weekends. If not I can die.
I had cramps the whole day. Pain till can die. I got no mood to do anthing. When eating, I just feel like vomit everything out. Majiam like pregnant woman lor. Want to die also cannot. Just feel that lower part of body very jelly like.
Just now cab to Desmond house. Den got mood to talk crap, fight, play with his stupid pen cover torchlight le worx. Haas. He's my medicine in everything la. If I go blind den its his fault. Very bad, keep pointing into my eyes. Worst than hp light. If its other people, the mouth will sure go "fcuk lah. never die before issit!!" Or something like that. But no matter how bad the person you like, you will still love him/her. Too blinded by love already. Ohh, and see his maths homework, immediate headache. Stress already. *Big head*
"But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I"
My favourite ang mor song for now is Bleeding love by Leona Lewis. Is gam pua nice lor! Every night keep listening on my mp3, if not cannot sleep. :D
I don't know is because I've grown up or leave secondary school, I really miss studying and going to school. Ask me do 10 times of F&N coursework I also don't mind. I just don't want to work. Its really very tiring. Can die lor. Everyday come home looking so half dead. So I'm going to treasure my 1 year studies in Shatec. The 2nd year will be attatchment. Sian already. I hate working!! :(
Thursday, April 17, 2008 ; 11:50 AM♥
I've been in and out of house for the past 2 days, today also!! Tired lor!! JiaEn introduce me and CWC a job, hear her say already like very nice to earn money, 2 weeks for $600+. Short woking hours, flexible time, doesn't require to stand and work all day. She say the first 2 days of training will be boring, afterwhich when money rolls in, hohoho!! Count until finger pain. Haha. Tired until I going to die, at night den reach home, early afternoon go out. But its okay. For the sake of money, just bear with it. If not how to get PSP!! ;)
I saw BaoZhen at the work place because this job is she introduce to JiaEn, also Siyun at Tampines interchange ytd while walking to MRT. We even went shopping tgt at Tmall and CS. And my handsome primary school boyfriend, Radin! Handsome boy leh!! :DD
Despite being very tired, I wake up at 5.30am today!! This is hell. And I can't fall asleep till 8.30am after the sms conversation with Desmond. He's very nice to keep me accompany until I sleep and didn't reply.
Me: Siao liao. I wake up so early den cant fall aslp liao. Den nw head so pain. Zzz.
He: For wad u wake up so early..
Me: Just wake up ownself lor. I cant fall aslp le.
He: Nvm..i keep u accompany..
I still need to wait till 12 Nov, Wednesday till his last paper end. I check SEAB website!! 209 days more to go. Sian already. To me its 10,000 years later. And 84 days to school start, 7 July! Yay! Finally can go to school. Anyway, I prefer studying than working. Although I don't like to study, but study for the sake of studying, should be not bad bah. Rather than working, so tiring. :(
And my liquid foundation going to use finish already. Am thinking of getting the Angel Lift L.F for $25.80, but the smell sux. And its very oily and rough after applying on my hands. Yucks. I want to get Skinfood one, but have to go all the way to Parkway Pardade den have it, or at town. Sian already. I won't look pretty anymore without liquid foundation. Its so good that it covers all your flaws.
I hardly blog at morning, but I just feel like blogging. Now already 12.30pm, later at 1 need to bath and get ready for my 2nd day training. Abit sian but nvm. Its at MDIS building at Eunos anyway. Byee!
Monday, April 14, 2008 ; 10:05 PM♥
I will wait for you. No matter how long it take, I will still wait. Because I love you. :)
Your words touched me deeply. And I know you're the kind of person who hardly sweet talk. Although you're not the best, not romantic, not that sweet and caring, but I still love you. So deeply attatched to you which no fcuking boys had ever gave me this kind of feeling. Damn. I think I'm crazy over you. I know you will fulfill the promise you've made and I choose to trust and believe in you. We will forget all the unhappiness and start all over again till your O levels end. *7 months later*
And this guy is no other than Desmond Ng. My 5 years friend, 1 year boyfriend, 1 year friend and forever boyfriend. I never thought that I will fall in love with a primary school friend. The feeling is just very wierd, hard to describe. And we're not that close during those days. Can't remember alot also. Very complicated but cool! ;)
With you by my side, I won't mind being poor or suffer for my whole life. I don't give a damn whether I have money for shopping. Because I'm happy. I learn to treasure and not to take it for granted.
I know I've been posting alot lately. All my happy and unhappiness. So I've decided to take a break from blogging. Will blog on this weekends again unless I see a need to blog. Stay tune for more updates! :D
Sunday, April 13, 2008 ; 11:08 PM♥
Damn. I'm now super uber tired. I sleep at around 6am+ last night, or it should be in the morning. Plan not to sleep but too tired already. I literally lie on bed from 3.30 am to 6.30am doing nothing. Just can't get to sleep. Been thinking alot about money. How to have fast money other than going into prositution. Then wake up at 12pm and use comp. Sleep only for freaking 6 hours. This is hell. Will turn in early tonight. Bye.
And not to forget, I saw one very chio bag from Forever 21 website. Nabei. Make me so tempted to buy it. But it will make me damn broke if I get it. It will cost around $50 for the whole process of shipping. And the price stated is in USD. So convert to SGD quite expensive already. Sian. If possible, I hope to further my studies in US. At the same time, shop till siao lo!
Saturday, April 12, 2008 ; 11:53 PM♥
Things aren't working well like what I've think. I'm a little tired for all these already. I want to run away from reality, but how long can I run? I still have to face it one day. Damn, stress already. I will never give up even its just a glimpse of hope. No matter what is the outcome you give me 2 days later, I will still accept it. But one thing, I've never regret, really. :)
Well, its okay. I won't think so much. When I've found a freaking rich boyfriend one day, I make sure we will have a baby of our own at here. ;)
Having to "give birth" this baby will cost up to around $100 le lor!! Lols. The clothes are so damn cute. I love the winter outfit. But very expensive!!
And I've receive my ibanking device today. But nobody in the world tells me that the pin need at least 8 numbers!! Wtf!! And now I bloody can't login and have to submit a stupid form. Have to wait till they send me a letter with the pin in my mailbox. Damn. Need to wait for days again. This is so irritating!! But will still call DBS on monday to find out. When I've apply, it doesn't even say need at least 8 numbers. So whose fault is this? The ibanking website! Or am I blind to see that they never stated that need to have 8 numbers. Bloody hell. Grrr....!!
And I've receive my ibanking device today. But nobody in the world tells me that the pin need at least 8 numbers!! Wtf!! And now I bloody can't login and have to submit a stupid form. Have to wait till they send me a letter with the pin in my mailbox. Damn. Need to wait for days again. This is so irritating!! But will still call DBS on monday to find out. When I've apply, it doesn't even say need at least 8 numbers. So whose fault is this? The ibanking website! Or am I blind to see that they never stated that need to have 8 numbers. Bloody hell. Grrr....!!
I crave for authentic Japanese Ramen and Hokkaido Milk/Ice-cream. Although I've never eaten before, but its like so nice leh!! I want to see Cherry Blossom, Lavender etc.. I've checked newspapers. A 7 day Hokkaido trip can cost up to $2K plus, just the package without shopping. Its like wth! And Japan is not a shopping place as the things are soooo expensive. Taking a cab can cost up to $50. Go there is to have Seafood! The crabs are soooo huge okay! Can cost up to $100+. Watch Go Go Travel today and the crab legs they eat makes me want to fly there already. I will never die in peace if I never go there for holiday.
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Madelineee love Mike He, Wu Chun, Ruan Qing Tian (or whatever you spell it. he's the main actor of ming zhong zdwan), Ming Dao, Zheng Yuan Chang and so much more. If either one of them is my boyfriend, it will be the best gift that God has ever give me. *Day dreaming*
Friday, April 11, 2008 ; 11:53 PM♥
Damn. I must blog this now if not I will regret. Too excited already. But I don't know how to start with. =.=
I'm suppose to go to Tampines MRT to meet a girl and WC. I think God too love me and hate to see me so heartbroken, listening to sad songs every night, he let me meet my ex-boyfriend by coincidence! Its been a long time since I experience the "heartbeat very fast". Walao! More exciting and thrilling than roller coaster. (Just to exaggerate a little lah!) I feel like flying already loh!!
Actually I'm not really heartbroken till crying every night or wanting to kill myself. I didn't even shed a tear at all because I swear I will not cry over broken releationship. So brave lah! :D
; 1:15 AM♥
Sometimes I wonder if there will be people reading my this pathetic boring blog. So dead and no life. >.<
I think of opening blogshop preorders. Very nice to earn money one leh! Better than you slogging outside to work and earn that $5/hr. With this, I just need to get 5 people to buy things and I will have the $5 already! Its easy work. Everything just bank transfer, postage. You also don't need to meet the people. So nice. Soon I'm going to open OPI nail polish spree going at $13/bottle. Its like so freaking cheap for a OPI lor! Retail is around $21/bottle or more? Its a good brand which most menicure uses it. But very sad, I got bad habit of biting nails and school don't let us wear nail polish or keep long finger nails. So I can only go for fake nails? -.-
My red hair is slowly fading to brown. No red already. Sad! Bye red, hello brown!
Thursday, April 10, 2008 ; 2:01 AM♥
Damn. Im so hungry now. But cannot eat. Need to maintain my "slim figure" if not easy get fat. I've been trying ways to maintain how I look like now leh! Cannot let everything go to a waste. Somemore now got no boyfriend. So need to maintain, MAINTAIN!!! :D
And I'm so happy! I've made a POSB account and ATM card! Wohoo! Online shopping made easier with ibanking. Hehehe. I've put $20 inside. $1 also can make one bank account lor!! I didn't know this until I've called DBS just now. So go apply if you're over 16. So next time got money just bank in can already. When outside shopping den use NETS lor. But make sure your bank inside got enough money to buy the things you want. If not very malu one leh. NETS is not credit card!!! But I wonder if NETS is Debit card? No, I don't think so. Debit is debit, NETS is NETS, credit is credit. Somebody tell me leh!!
Tuesday, April 8, 2008 ; 11:37 PM♥
Sian. My mum get a new mp3 player, Samsung YP-T10. Got bluetooth one leh!! Walao. Better than my K3. Got voice recorder and all those shit. The whole mp3 is just so damn pretty luh!! 2G only $199. The screen is so colourful with the stupid dog loh. But I only like the thing you can set the speed of the music. When its the fastest, its like a children singing song. Nice one. Well, I still like my K3. (:
About Hokkaido, will update next time. Japan things is like very hard to research leh. Korea is more easier. =S
And so fast Poly and ITE going to start already. Some starting this week and next week. I'm still like a taitai everyday shake leg. Sian!! I want to go to school!! 27 June is my orientation date. 3 more months to school. I'm waiting! Going to school is better than been stuck at home doing those housework which is so damn freaking boring and tiring. So next time I don't want to be a taitai, I want to work and earn money!! =PP
You're gone. But I still miss you alot. Let me forget you and please don't ever come to my dream again. Very heartbroken one leh. You stupid boy! But I know you will never miss me, never think of me. =(
(Don't look like I'm feeling very heartbroken. But I miss him alot leh! Stupid! *Xim thia*)
Sunday, April 6, 2008 ; 12:09 AM♥
This is how my highlighted red hair looks like. Very ugly in picture but real life more chio lor! What can you do when you are using a freaking lousy camera to take photos. Some more this is with flash. If its without flash, you can't even see the colour at all. I don't want my red colour so fast fade to brown leh. If not I will cry. Finally a big good bye to secondary school black colour hair. Hehehe.
Bags, Bags, Bags, Bags, Bags!!
I'm going crazy over cheap but good quality bags. Damn!! Going to make me bankcrupt. But how can you resist over such chio things? T.T
I thought of getting this for casual shopping. Good enough to dump your handphone, mp3, tissue paper, cosmetic pouch, pads and everything lah! And its only $13 with shipping lor! But the stupid shipping always need to take around 1 month den reach S'pore. So if I use by EMS (which means fly by aeroplane, you can get it within 3-5 working days), its only $15.50. Quite worth the price for such a chio bag.
This is also $13 with normal shipping lah! I also don't know why I want to get this bag. Just find it very chio. Best for beach outing? But I don't go to places like Sentosa. The stripes are very nice. But nvm. I just admire the picture can le lor. >.<
When first saw this, I fell in love with it already! Super chio!!! Think of bringing it to school, but its like too childish already. I'm going to study "Poly" leh!! (Well, its still a Poly, but a private one. My course is a Diploma ok!!) Still bringing this kind of bag people will laugh. Will consider getting it if I'm still in East Spring. It will be $15.50 with normal shipping.
So I will buy this and bring to school! Hehehe. Its a new design, only $14 with normal shipping. So mature and office like. Lol!! *Kiss Kiss*
A little research will get you to have cheap stuffs. That's the advantage of online shopping. But the sad thing is if you found any defects, you can't change it. But you can sell it off lah. So I need to sort out my budget and money already. Sian!
Next entry, I will talk about going to Japan, Hokkaido. Just let me do some research first. I swear I'm going there for honeymoon after watching Go Go Travel!! :D
Thursday, April 3, 2008 ; 11:32 PM♥
Hello, hello hello!!
I know its been a freaking long time since I've blog. Very lazy lah! >.<
I know its been a freaking long time since I've blog. Very lazy lah! >.<
I saw Xinyi yesterday at Tmart bus stop while delievering some stuffs to a girl. So happy to see her. And her first or second sentence to me is "你很像变瘦了hor". Wahh. Happy lah! The second best nice things to hear. (The first is "I love you" from the guy you love most loh.) Hehehe. I just love to hear people say I've become skinny already! And my cousins also like this say. I feel like flying to heaven le lah!! =D
And and and, I highlighted my hair in red colour! Wohoo! Cut and highlight for $36 only lor. I take $20 from my dad den the rest i pay myself. My hair is so short now, bob hair short. When I come home, my mum say why highlight red, only aunty will do red. Sian! Spend around 1hr to let the colour absorb to my hair cos my hair very black. Duhh. Its like very long. Heng red colour long le will change to brown. Very wierd but dunno why. Red is not lasting!! >.<
But I still love my hair colour very much. Finally not black hair like haven graduate from secondary school. Hehehe. Ohh, and when school reopen soon, I'm going to dye whole head to light brown ba. So excited lor! Hope my hair won't get damage. =(
Madeline. 
