MADELINEE GOLD

2009-04-27T19:14:00.003+08:00

6 projects to be done and I've not do anything yet. This is the 4th week already and most probably got to submit on the 8th week. I'm still in holiday mood despite 4 weeks have past. And I think I've skip 5 to 6 days of school for the past 4 weeks. Lol. Good, can't wait to get out of school. Still got to write resume and send out. But I'm just plain too lazy to do anything that is related to school. I finally understand why baby say he keep don't want to go school. Theory lessons are too boring. 6 more weeks I'm out of hell. Oh well, good luck to myself then.

2009-04-19T23:35:00.003+08:00

My grandfather just pass away on sat morning, around 3 to 4am. He died in his sleep I think. Very peacefully. Another funeral to attend after my grandma's one about 2 months ago. Well, 2009 issin't a good year.

I miss my dear boyfrienddd. I hate only able to see him once a week. Walaooo eh. :(

2009-04-17T21:45:00.003+08:00

I hate fridays. Lesson starts at 10.30am and last till 4pm without any lunchbreak. I had lunch at 6pm and dinner at 9pm. I'm not hungry at all but I just squeeze the food into my stomach. And now I have a bad stomachache. I wonder if the fucker who plans timetable that time is sleeping anot. Tml must go back sch again. Boring!

Ohyes, I got a good news from Mohsheng. Now Shatec is like following Poly system. As long as you have 75% attendance for each subject, you're safe. Which means on the same day, you can skip morning lesson but go for afternoon one. Best is don't need mc at all! Muahahaha! In the past, baby and I really spend alot of money taking mc. But now, :). No, Shatec doesn't have horrible school system. If only this system is set in the past, how good will that be. They set now also no use la!! %^&*;+%$

2009-04-12T20:29:00.002+08:00

The very nice of me went down to Bugis last night to find baby after his work. I cannot tahan 2 days without seeing him la. Was pretty excited throughout the whole train journey. Lol. And I called this pubor Tay Xinyi when I'm back home. Been 576483 years since we've last contacted. Glad that she's doing fine lahh. And I hope that my ex boyfriend, Yeo Nengli is doing well with her current boyfriend, Ben. Okay, I know I'm being stupid and random. Bye.

2009-04-11T01:46:00.006+08:00

I seriously hate school. Whoever is that fucker who plans timetable is an idiot. Why the fuck we have 8hrs of IT lesson per week and Asian Sweets got to be held on sat. Which means sat must go back school. Who the fuck wants to go back school on sat? Plus I'm living damn far away from school ok. And with the amount of projects and subjects to cope, it can really kill me. I cannot handle stress. I hate pastry now. The course is not as fun as what I've thought. It doesn't intrest me anymore. I think I'm going to delay attatchment. Worst is I feel like dropping out now lor! Kns. Took up pastry cos I thought hot kitchen is always very hot because I hate sweating. But I'm wrong la. Most kitchens in the industry have aircon de lor. I know I can't cook well, but at least I'm doing things that I like. I don't mind peeling potatoes or cutting vegetables la. I swear that after I've completed my attatchment, I'm not going to work in pastry kitchen. Eeewk. School is irritating and pissing me off. The new school system is horrible.

Okay, and I miss baby. Attatchment seriously sux!!

2009-04-07T16:28:00.004+08:00

Everything is okay, only when I'm near you
Only for you, I will give you everything I have
It's alright, recognize
Even the thought of having you in my heart, I started smiling automatically
In my eyes I can't see anyone but you
It makes me happy when I see you playing around cutely
Sometimes you're my cute friend, my loveable husband
You're my baby boy, sweety boy
Forever, forever with you

If you say you'll stay beside me
If you say you'll always hold my hands
I believe I can do anything for you
Its okay, its okay
If I only have you its okay
If this is what love is, then I'm happy
If this is what love is, then everything is okay
If there's anything wrong, just being someone to cheer you up, I'm okay
Its okay, its okay, I'll understand, its okay

I must've love you too much
The truth is I must love you
Its so hard to fall asleep
I love everything about you
If I have only you, I'm okay
If you'll stay beside me
I love you
I'll always stay by your side
Look only at you

Stay beside me, I'll protect you tightly held your two hands
I will win any diffculties, there is no sadness nor seperation
My love will never change
You might not believe me, but I care for you more than myself
One minute, two seconds
Everytime I think of you, even if I don't tell you sometimes
Our releationship which started like a joke, is now my everything
I may act blunt, but you're the light which changed my heart
Even when we're far apart, I will find you beacause I'm your star

If you say you'll be beside me
If you say you'll always hold my hands
I love you is all I can tell you
But I won't ever let go the happiness I hold
If this is what love is, then I'm happy
If this is what love is, then everything is okay
I love you, that's what I felt from the start
I will always protect you whenever
I must've love you too much

Like a fool, I spend the day laughing while thinking of you
Just like this, we promise to stay like this forever
If I have only you, I'm okay
If you'll stay beside me
I love you
I'll always stay by your side
Look only at you

Today is the last day with baby. Really last day liao lor! After school bring him to his work place jiu go home liao. Cos he don't know how to go la. =.=

2009-04-05T22:28:00.002+08:00

I have a new friend to accompany me to school tomorrow. And he's Tan Moh Sheng. Laughs! :D

2009-04-05T16:49:00.002+08:00

I hate baby for bitting my finger and lips till it bleeds, using his muay thai kicks on me till my tights turns red. But yesterday is the last day of seeing him lor! :(
And school starts at 8.15am tomorrow. Boring!

2009-04-02T00:49:00.001+08:00

I'm going to fail Food Cost again. I think I can't get my diploma anymore.

2009-03-29T20:41:00.002+08:00

Holidays for a week. And then back for theory lessons. I don't miss production. :)
8-9 subjects to cope, 3-4 projects to handle. Kns! Gonna retake my Food Cost on wed again. Stupid! Hope I pass the paper. Paid $75 for it lor. & baby gonna go to Genting from tml till wed. Eeeewk.

2009-03-21T02:39:00.002+08:00

To Nengli & Co.
Sorry that can't accompany you guys to Pulau Ubin later. Got to do my practical stuffs at home. I know its been a long time since I've catch up with you guys. But I'll do that during my holidays ok. This term too busy working till no time to go out with you people. Sorry laaahhh. I miss those days slacking with you all. :(

To Grace & Huiwen.
Sorry for being so dao in school and hardly talk to you both. After the incident happen to me last friday, I totally shut myself off from people. Even Yongcheng also say he's not use to see me being so quiet. Don't worry, I'll be back myself again soon. Have loads of things to catch up with you girls.

2009-03-14T16:22:00.003+08:00

I believe in ghost and spirits.
I believe in karma.
I believe in God.
I believe in 13 Friday is a bad day.

Something bad happen to me last night. Yes, it involves in these things. I still can remember every single thing that happen to me. Thank God baby was there. After that, I just burst into tears...

Today is our first month. But I don't have the mood to go anywhere. Baby is taking his practical 7 today for the 4th time already. Maybe later to his house again. I just want him to be by my side now. Yesterday is the worst day of my life. I will never forget what it has happened.

2009-03-08T21:51:00.002+08:00

I know I've been neglecting about my blog, and of cos friends. Its been a long time since I've meet the regulars. Last time in Charcoal, monday to saturday got to work. Even barely have the time to relax at home and rest. Now in production, long working hours. The earliest time to go off also 5+ going 6pm. So I guess must wait for the next theory semester den will have the time for them. =x

24 March gonna be my big day. Its my comprehensive exam! Omg! I pray to God better don't let me screw up this practical again. If not gonna pay $100 for it. & I failed my Food Cost lor. Got to retake again, $75. Scew Shatec! Everything also talk about money. My GPA for S1P1 is 3.38. Now drop till 2.8. *Faint* But it doesn't matter. As long as I get my diploma and fuck off from Shatec, everything will be alright. Its the diploma that I want.

2009-03-05T21:53:00.003+08:00

I perfer hand written journal rather than blogging. So I guess won't be blogging that often. And I still don't like production. Chef Catan Tan came on tue or ytd. Can't remember. I miss him lahhh. & Charcoal service staffs and the mushroom soup. Haahaa. Okay, will blog when I'm not that lazy. & don't leave my tagboard dead. Byee.

2009-02-16T22:43:00.003+08:00

Very angry nowwww. My MSN can't be login due to some don't know what shit. And I'm eatting some horrible maggie mee. Really got no mood to eat. Damn tasteless. My brothers just now almost scared me to death. Was on the phone and they walk without any sound. Suddenly pop right infront of me and I almost scream. Now I'm afraid to be home alone.

My first day at Charcoal, was being send back home by Chef Soon and Thong. They say cos my
ahma pass away then I was excused. Next 3 days also. Sad that didn't saw my god father there. And my ribeye, lambshank and Brian all go back production liaoooo. Omg!!

& people, thanks for all your concern. I'm okay, no worries. I will stay strong. :)

2009-02-16T12:06:00.002+08:00

My grandma pass away yesterday at CGH, 1.09pm. When I saw her body, my tears keep flowing like tap water. Although I'm not really that close with her, but at least she saw me growing up. These few days will be going to Bukit Panjang for the funeral. & I know I'm gonna be very tired.

Gonna meet up with my dear girl soon, Yeo Nengli. The last I saw her is on her bday? Can't rmb also. Sorry bitch, always reject going out with you. I know you miss me, but you miss your Ben even more right? Haas. After the funeral then meet you bah. Ohya, must use up my Perlini Silver 30% discount voucher lah!! :D

On Valentine's, I met my loveeeeeeeeeeee. :)
Oh boy, you'll always be my babyyyyyyyyy.

& I miss Charcoal's soft shell crab and Shirly Templeeeeeeeee.

2009-02-13T00:09:00.002+08:00

Production sux and its damn fucking boring. But but but, next whole week I will be at Charcoal!! Muahahahaha! Happy lahhhh~ Tue went to Charcoal and eat with Dixon. His treat. Teehee. Ordered soft shell crab. Yum yum~ Later will be another boring day at production. Urgh!

2009-02-08T19:09:00.005+08:00

Last day at charcoal.
Last day with the kitchen and service staffs.
Last day drinking mushroom soup.
Last day playing with the date tags.
Last day washing the kitchen.
Last day Chef Catan Tan disturbing me.
Last day walking inside the chiller and freezer.
Last day peeping at the guys changing.

So many last day. Hiax. I miss them badly. My tears nearly roll down when Chef is debriefing us. Really sad to go lah. :(

p/s: I think I choose the wrong course already. Should have choosen DCS instead of DPB. I love the fast and steady speed inside the kitchen. Haaas. And now I'm struggling like fuck with POB. -.-

2009-02-07T00:24:00.003+08:00

Later will be the last day at Charcoal. I hate going back to school. Grrrr..! Gonna miss the kitchen and serivce staffs badly. And of cos the best chef that I ever had, Chef Catan Tan. He's the best lah! Brian even say he's my god father. Funny guy. I still have 16hrs of make up to go. May drop in one sat to work with them again. Heehee.

My mum has serious nose problem. She say she can't tahan my Incanto Heaven perfume. Walao. Its very different from my Escada Moonsparkle can!! Moonsparkle is even sweeter smelling. She only likes Hugo Boss, Gucci or Davidoff nia. =.=

& Happy 44th Birthday to my Dad on wed. Lol.

2009-02-03T00:52:00.002+08:00

I really know how to enjoy life. Before going to work, wanted to meet Dixon for lunch but end up landing ourself in Starbucks. Enjoyed my Raspberry Cream Frapp. Muhahaha! Chef Tan let the few of us to go home early, so I decided to go to Bugis Street to look for navel stud. So from Charcoal we walk to Bugis. Yes, & I brought 2 of it. Since its like still 9+, the crazy Dixon and me actually walk from Bugis to Paya Lebar for about 1hr. Yes la, we walk can! Just to save the few cents of transport. Lol. But my legs not really that suan leh. Maybe next time shld try to walk back home. I think it will take 2hrs. Haas.

2009-02-01T00:19:00.006+08:00

Go to this shop at Far East Plaza if you wanna get perfume. Maple Joy Cosmetics, #03-82.

Its damn fucking cheap la hor! I got the Incanto Ferragamo Heaven 100ml for $48 nia lor! Or what about 100ml Dior Addict 2 for $126? You say cheap anot? And I'm going to get another bottle soon when I have the money, but forget what is the name. Dixon and I went shopping after work, pass by the shop and we brought a perfume each. Muahahaha!

I almost faint when you tell me your things. Hiax. & riding on bike is damn cool and fun la. (:

Monday will be the last day working with the DCS 708 A. They're going back to production on tue. Soon will be able to see them but can't work tgt anymore. Eeeeewk~ Hate production!!

From menthol lights to menthol and now reds. Damn, I think I'm dying soon.

2009-01-28T22:31:00.004+08:00

No mood to celebrate CNY. Ang bao less than $200. Shit sial! One make up down, 3 more to go. I know I will take more MC's when production days start. Next week will be the last week in Charcoal. Sian! I don't want to go back to school. So damn fucking farrrr and boringggg~

2009-01-25T21:24:00.002+08:00

To Miss Lim Shiqi :

Please remove the "Desmond aka Madeline steady" in your blog. 4 months ago I have nothing to do with this person anymore. So to avoid misunderstanding, you must remove okay. Don't be lazy. (:

CNY is boring. I only want ang baos.

2009-01-25T02:26:00.011+08:00

Just browse through Skinfood website and found out that Raffles City has an outlet! Dixon, faster get your ass back to S'pore and lets go shopping together. & damn. I spend about $100 this week on shopping, food and MC's. Nabeis. Now I've got to do 16 hours of make up. Sian. Finally got the Faceshop white eyeshadow stick and sharpener. Got to get new foundation powder as there's a big hole in the center already. I hope my dad has a money printer.

p/s: Its 4.30am now but I still can't get to sleep. And I have nobody to talk to lahhh. Fuckkkkkkkkkkk.

"From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart"

2009-01-24T02:05:00.004+08:00

This photo really makes me go rofl. 6F'03 photo which I got from Jiajie. Miss Hayati send it to her. Its been 6 years already. I look so retarded in the past. Try to find me if you can. Haaas. I prefer this white uniform top than the new orange one that my brother is wearing. It looks damn ugly and horrible luh! And I can't get to sleep again. Urgh! I'm hungry. =/

2009-01-23T00:01:00.005+08:00

I actually spend $54 on Perlini Silver today, necklace, bracelet & earrings. *Faint* Meet Dixon for shopping at Raffles City before working. Then I've got that very ugly classic card. Up to date, I think I've spend more than $100 on P.S. Gonna add more to my collection. Oh yes, saw one very cool keyring that cost $98. But that's for men and its plated with MY CAR. Really very chioooooooooooooooo~ And I know if I have the money, I will get it. ;)

Why do I feel that that kind of very sour heartbroken feeling will be coming near me again? Damn. I don't feel good. I'm tired of living like this.

2009-01-22T00:59:00.004+08:00

Had another 6F'03 gathering again with Miss Hayati at Seoul Garden. Saw those familar faces again. Really miss them and primary school life. Was such a happy and carefree girl in the past. But now, damn horrible lah! So many things can happen in the past 5 years and really regretted doing things that should not be done. But these obstacles really make be become stronger. Gonna treat myself better and live my life to the fullest now. :)

& my cough doesn't seems to go away. Every year sure got a period of time I will cough badly. Usually last up to a month or 3 months latest. Guess my lungs aren't in good working condition anymore.

2009-01-20T11:50:00.001+08:00

I will be a good girl and go to work today. :D

2009-01-19T02:06:00.004+08:00

Its 2am now but I still can't sleep. Working afternoon shift for this week so its okay lah. Gotta pop out from my bed at 6am later to give a pig morning call. I think I must call for 10 times before he wakes up. I'm taking MC later again. But this time I never kay siao okay. Really coughing badly and can't talk. How can food handlers keep coughing when working. Later germs spread inside the food how? Haas. Me and my stupid excuses. So, got to do make up again liao. But nvm, I enjoy my work esp in the kitchen. :D

2009-01-17T23:24:00.003+08:00

And finally I've lost my voice thanks to those mangoes I ate during staff meal. Not a few but alot. Mangoes and mango puree drink. Nice one lah. Now I talk like a toad, sing like a crow. Damn horrible. Did make up again today. 8am till 10pm. By right 8pm can leave but by left I stayed on till 10. Camp myself in the kitchen for the whole day again. Did and learn quite alot of things. Sorry guys, for throwing your in the pastry counter and go to the kitchen. You know I can't stay still doing nothing. Teehee. ;)

2009-01-16T22:40:00.002+08:00

Had a horrible sore throat which makes me keep coughing non stop. Guess tml I will lost my voice and cough even worst. Did 4 hours of make up today. Damn fun la. Stay in the kitchen as pastry counter damn cramp and crowded. End up peeling onions for 30 mins which make me cried. Another 4 more hours to go. Take more MC = Make up more days. So the moral of the story is, don't take MC when having school attatchment. :]

2009-01-15T22:07:00.002+08:00

Yesterday during working, slept at hot spot. Don't know why I'm so tired also. Come back haven bath jiu sleep till 7.30. 2 hours later I went to sleep again till morning. Feeling so sick these few days. Really lack of good food and sleep luh! I want to eat chilli crab! :(

2009-01-13T21:38:00.009+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday, Yeo Nengli!

I don't know why I feel that my legs are breaking today. I'm actually looking forward going to Charcoal everyday. Not because of the work, but the people there are damn cute and friendly lah! Teehee. ;)

2009-01-11T14:29:00.002+08:00

Going to Chinatown Party World later in the evening to celebrate boyfriend's birthday with the regulars. But, I'm working morning shift tomorrow. Tmd.

2009-01-09T13:27:00.002+08:00

Leaving home at 2.45, starting work at 4. Gonna stand and nua for the next 6 hours. Same routine for tomorrow also. Working really damn no life when its afternoon shift. Yawns~

2009-01-09T00:53:00.002+08:00

My cramps are seriously killing me. I hope I will be able to sleep tonight and not rolling on my bed.

2009-01-06T23:37:00.002+08:00

When you grow older, you will find that nothing seems to intrest you anymore.

2009-01-04T01:42:00.004+08:00

Dark eyecircles & eyebags, tired body, sour legs is what I got from working!! I need more mask please. Hot kitchen is so damn cool. They can shout whatever they want. Unlike pastry corner, so boring. Yawns~ Ohh, and I fucking hate that school has reopend. Every morning will be jamming everywhere and I will be late luh! Gonna put eyemask and catch some sleep now. Working afternoon shift for next week. Hahaha! Good night!

2009-01-01T22:27:00.004+08:00

I'm soaking my leg with warm water now. Damn shiok. Happy new year people!

Yesterday after work went home then go to Cityhall again to meet up the regulars. They're late for 30 minutes amd I'm waiting for them alone. Nabeis. & bla~ Say don't want to ton in the end still ton. Reach home at 8am, remove makeup, bath and sleepppp!! Tml still got to wake up at 6am. Hiax.

Madeline's 2009 resolutions.

1. Slim down.
2. Good results in studies.
3. A good hotel for attatchment.
4. Stop whining and kbing.
5. New handphone.
6. My legs to get use for standing long hours.
7. More money for shopping.
8. Find more reasons to smile.
9. Maybe a good boyfriend? Haas!
10. Good health to everybody.

This is more of a wishes than resolutions ba. Off to sleep now. Byeex!

2008-12-30T18:50:00.003+08:00

Working issin't fun at all. Charcoal is very slack. You can just stand there and do nothing. But my legs are breaking! Hurhur! And the work space is damn small with so many people. This week working morning shift, 8am to 4pm. Time is really hard to past.

Meeting up with the regulars for countdown at Marina tml. Crazy Ngaiyun and Clinton brought 48 cans of crazy ribbon just to spray people. Abit siao luh! Think they're going to ton. But I will be going home and sleep. Need to replenish my sleep and put eye mask!!

Gonna soak my leg in hot water soon. Bye.

2008-12-28T00:24:00.002+08:00

Today is the last day of my holiday. Hurhur! 2 weeks past so fast. For the next 6 weeks will be at Charcoal and the other 7 weeks at production. Urgh! Charcoal is at City Hall so that means after work can drop by MS for shopping! & Raffles City Perlini Silver!! :D

Okay, will not be smoking for the next few months. Smoking will slow the healing process of a piercing! Should take more vit C also.

http://www.body-piercing.com.au/body_piercing_guide/navel_piercing_guide.htm
Read this! And also other facts of piercing. Just navigate around!

2008-12-25T15:56:00.008+08:00

Merry Christmas! May God bless you people. (:

Spend Xmas eve at Orchard with the usuals except for Nicholas. Those snow spray just got my body and hair damn sticky. But still its fun lah. We left at around 1.20am. Walk home from MRT station. And the best thing is my mum lock the door! So nabeis lor. I walk to Nengli house and spend the night there. Lol! Left at 7.45am cos she's going to work. Kelian sia! She only have like pathetic 2 hours of sleep nia. Walk home from 201, reach home, bath and sleep till 2.30pm.

Very shag face @ Downtown.

Nicholas, Ngaiyun, Nengli, Me & Clinton. Cool luh!

2008-12-23T20:49:00.006+08:00

Yesterday morning pei Nengli to Colleage East for her application of Beauty Therapy den meet Louis go school pay school fees. Then go over to Bugis Street and start shopping like crazy. Spend over $70 on accessories, dress and slippers. Ohh, and I repierce nose for the 3rd time on the same spot again. At night go Ehub watch Twilight with the usuals and clinton brother. They treat us so we go lor. Heeh.

And today I pierce my navel! Sibei song can! Yeap, its painful but its bearable. I didn't know before body piercing must eat food then can pierce. So, I pierce with an empty stomach. And while piercing, I fainted and fell down from the stairs, leaving me 2 big lumps behind my head. Lol!! Pain like fuck lor! But its cool la. No seafood and eggs for the next 2 week. Eeewks~

Up to date, I think I've pierce 11 times on my ear (including when I'm young), 3 times on nose, 1 time on tongue and 1 navel piercing. But now I'm left with 8 ear holes, 1 nose piercing and the navel one. Tongue is Jiaen help me pierce but I take out after my parents found out. I think I've spend about $100 on piercings. Abit kua zhang sia. Although I'm very scared of the "gun" sound and the pain, but still can pierce like nobody business. I think I'm crazy. But I know I will never go for tattoos. (:

2008-12-21T05:58:00.004+08:00

Its 6am in the morning now and I still haven sleep. Good morning people! Haas. Been watching VCD. Think my insomnia is coming back again. Urgh! I hate sleepless nights. Okay, going to get some sleep now. Hopefully I can just close my eyes and sleep. Byeex.

2008-12-20T21:02:00.003+08:00

Sian. Have been watching Ming Zhong for the past one week. And I'm going to watch finish liaoooo. Urghhh!

Ohyes, I wanna intro girls who makeup to use Biore Cleansing Oil for remover. Just pump abit on hand and rub it all over the face and tada!, all makeup on face are removed! I got do experiment de hor!! After using it I use Maybelline makeup remover and wipe on my face. There's really nothing on the cotton pad luh!

Next is Faceshop The Flower Dual Concealer, $26.90 one. One side is liquid and the other is stick. Aiseh! Really damn good lah. I just put a little on my hand and I fall in love with it already. Its smooth to application, not oily or sticky. I'm going to get it once I get my money. :D

& I've got my first Christmas Present for this year. Vardi&Migdal Dead Sea Nail Kit. Omgg! I just love it lahh! You can't buy it from shops, its a pushcart at shopping centers. Straits Time also got publish before. Its a Israel couple selling Dead Sea products. They come over to you, buffer your nail and apply the oil on your cuticle. Maybe some people have experience it before. And this little kit cost $90. Its on my hands now!! Muahahahaha!

2008-12-19T02:12:00.004+08:00

Congragulations to Yeo Nengli for scoring at 6 points for her N level. Li hai liao lor! Never study also can get 6. I never study get 8 sial! Anyway, good for you la boyfriend. Hope you won't regret the route you're choosing. Jiayou orh!

My baby blue cake mixer came on wednesday night. Damn. By right should be the sweet pink but its oos! Urgh! But still love it lah. Thanks Louis! Meetup next week go school pay school fees and return you the money okay.

As you see my blog profile, I've added many cute little pictures! I know a 17 going 18 girl still have such a act cute blog. But these are really too kawali lah. Just like me, still young and cute! Lol!! Don't puke!!

Just realise I've been staying at home for this whole week. Never go out shopping. Wanna know why? Cos my bank left $34.34 so I dare not go out just in case I start spending money again. %^&*%!(^&#

Byeex.

2008-12-16T19:47:00.009+08:00

Damn. I'm in love with Faceshop stick eyeshadow! Omg! So damn easy to apply lahh. And make me have bling bling eyes. I want the white, blue and violet ones! Best is today I go to my dad shop, open the drawer, saw one packet of Silky Girl Funky Eyelights pencil. So I just take it. Lol! Pink, purple, blue, silver and green. 2 of each colour so I'm going to give it to Nengli the next time when I'm meeting her. Cool sia. Okay, and I'm going to get the Watsons look alike M)phosis transparent cosmetic bag.

I've trimmed my hair at 201 today. Heng its not ugly if not I can go bang wall sua.

P/S: Its 11pm now. I just come back from Tmart one hour ago and saw an accident at Esso when I'm going there. Car and bike buang together. I hear the loud crash despite my mp3 on very loud and saw the motorist flying out from the bike with my own eye. Walaooo~ Why must I see such things sial! Anyway, went to Watsons get the clear makeup pouch and Biore makeup oil remover. And shop N save for Biore makeup tissue. So now I'm like damn fucking broke already. Lols! =x
& meetup with Xinyi the 38 awhile luh. Its like don't know how many cow years since I've last saw her. Abit kua zhang but she's damn hard to contact can! People who know her will understand. Laughs!

2008-12-14T23:28:00.003+08:00

Thanks those who wished me and post my big name in their blog. Haas. (:
& a million love and kisses to Grace & Huiwen for the cute keychain. I know its not cheap okay! But thanks alot. ^^

Yeapp, I spend my birthday at Bedok 85 without Clinton & Nicholas but with the regulars and HQ'♥. Laughs! Anyway, did enjoy myself lahh. Just back home from Tmall with Nengli. Starbucks raspberry frapp! Heeh.

Yes, finally brought new sponge for my foundation at Faceshop. And tomorrow Nengli gonna help me buy the Pink eyeshadow stick, Gold eyeshadow and the eyelash curler from Faceshop. Although I'm not a big fan on eyeshadow, but just buy it anyway. It will come in handy one day. And 3 eyeshimmers from online. Teehee. :D

2008-12-13T00:13:00.006+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday to myself! Finally lao niang is 17 years old!! Laughs!
Ohh, & 17th happy birthday to twin sister, Winnie Chan Kah Yan! (:

So quite alot of people remember my birthday! Cos I force them de lahh. Heeh. One time so many MSN conversation pop out. See already damn song can! Lol! To those who wish, thanks a million lahhh. Love you all to the max! :D

Later still must go school for last paper, POB. Exam still must birthday. Eeeewk~ Then later at night Bedok 85 with Boyfriend & co. Cool! First time celebrate birthday at hawker center. Okay, my birthday wish is I hope I'm forever 17 and pretty. Haas.

& byebye. ;)

2008-12-12T19:43:00.002+08:00

I hope people will bomb my handphone and MSN tonight wishing me Happy Birthday! Haas. Shall see who remember my birthday. ;)

2008-12-11T17:25:00.005+08:00

Yes lahh. Food Cost gonna fail, badly. One whole page almost blank. How can don't fail?

Took train back with HQ'♥ and meetup with Nengli. Shop around then Clinton, Ngaiyun and Manzoo joined us. Watch Bolt at GV. The 3D effect damn cool siol! Must go watch! Soon I will be a big fan of 3D movies. Haas. Then HQ'♥ came to MRT station look for me and we walk to my place. Teehee. Also don't know how I drag my feet back home despite being so tired. Reach home 11pm+. Laughs! My first time wearing school uniform then go home so 'late'. ;)

2 more papers to go. Urgh!

2008-12-09T20:13:00.002+08:00

Exams starts tomorrow and what have I studied? Nothing at all. Yes, I did notes. But I'm just too lazy to read it. The word "lazy" is damn powerful okay! Excuse, excuse and just more excuse. Haas. Hmm, I think I will flunk my exams badly. God see me at home eng eng ceng ceng do nothing also don't want to boh pi me liao.

Britney Spears song Womanizer is great! ;)

2008-12-08T02:23:00.003+08:00

1. I lost my winter sonata pendant from Korea. Fuck it~ Cost me a bomb, $58. I wear until it drop at home and I just can't find it. Nabei!!

2. Birthday coming in 5 days time. Which means 5 days later exams then end. Walaooo~ Why must exam be on a saturday? Stupid school. Don't know how to plan exam timetable. & its like going to pay another 3K+ for the school fees again. *Faint* I feel like quitting school I tell you.

3. I love My Melody and Scrump! They're super kawali and cuteeeeeeee!

4. Very soon I'm gonna get the Japan Flip Phoneeee! Muahahahaha! Damn happy siol. Wohoo!

5. I crave for Carbonara, Pasta Mania Italian Soda, Starbucks Mocha Frapp and MacDonals hotcakes nowwww!!

2008-12-06T21:41:00.002+08:00

Celebrated sister-clinton birthday last night. Meet up with boyfriend and had dinner first then went to his condo. Before that did some shopping. Another collection of Perlini Silver anklet in my box. Wohoo! Love it lahh. Gonna get another anklet, bracelet and maybe some necklace next time. Heeh. Boyfriend and me are very P.S siao. ;)

Sister birthday like kind of pathetic. Only the regularly 5 of us except sister-nic. No cake, no suprise, no celebration. Only card games and liquor. *Faint* My whole body were full of rashes after a few mouth. I can take the stupid liquor because they mixed with damn alot of Sprite. Slack and cab home at 1.30am.

Today whole day doing notes at home. Still half way done. Keep writing till my hand gonna break. >.<

2008-12-04T23:38:00.004+08:00

I've screwed up my 2 practical test. Nice one. Bla~ Guess I'm just not fit to work in this line. After test took cab with Lydia, Cynthia & Louis. Bukit Batok to town, Kembangan and Tampines. Whole journey lasted for 1hr 30min. Fare add up to $38. From no peak hour charge we take till have charge. Go through 2 ERP granty. And its mercedes cab. First time take cab till pek cek. Make me have fear of taking cab again. The seat is kind of uncomfortable and makes my neck very stiff. I still prefer comfort cab luh!

Clinton-sister birthday tml. Yea, gonna be another day out. Monday, tuesday and thursday no school. Wed;Food Cost, Fri;Menu Planning; Sat;POB. Tmd! Birthday still must go school exams. Wtf. And I don't know why I don't have the mood to celebrate birthday. Is like "Oh okay, I'm growing older already." Nothing nice to celebrate also. Just a normal day. I just want the japan flip phone lahhh! :D

& yes la. My ibanking device has gone missing! Okay, if I can't find it, gonna pay $20 for this cute small little toy if I'm not wrong. =.=

2008-12-03T03:24:00.005+08:00

Reach home around 2am. My dad is trying to bomb my phone can! Boyfriend & co and Manzoo were there except for sister-nic. From my house walk to 201. Was a fast walk as I'm talking on phone with my beloved senior. Sister damn cute can! Go catch frog and BBQ it. Uhh, and cockroach too. He's mad I think. Walk home from Pasir Ris Park. Haaas. A lazy bum like me is walking home and not taking cab!

Why he don't believe I like him leh? He's like so doubtful about my words. Seriously when I saw him, I feel that I'm melting. I want to hug him can! The best is kiss. Wohoo! Lol. But I know, we will never be together for now. Maybe in the future we will? Heeheehee. :D

Okay, I think the speed of me liking somebody is like changing of underwear. Comes and go very fast. Haaas. Yes, I like them. But that doesn't mean must be together right. And so what if they have girlfriend. Got girlfriend cannot break de meh? Not as if they're married. Even if they're married still can divorce de what. Lol. I know like this very jian and will got karma, so I'm not gonna be such person. I'm a kind person. Wahahahaha.

I saw some very cool & chio Japan handphones that are not absolutely not avaliable in Spore! And the price is like $400 to $500+ only. Consider cheap le hor! Walaooo. Who wanna buy for me??????????

& I think I'm not gonna slp tonight. Maybe watching ming zhong or study menu planning. Blah~ Uhh, I feel like going to the zoo! ^^

2008-12-02T15:09:00.002+08:00

Okay, my mum went to M'sia. Will be back tml. And the whole house is in a mess now. We very "bo zeng hu" (no government) when she's not at home. My brother went out, the other one playing online game and I'm using my dad laptop now surfing the net when the 3 theory papers are just next week! Have not study anything yet. Yea, so pathetic. And later in the evening will be going to boyfriend brother birthday BBQ at Pasir Ris Park. Yes, BBQ again. So sick of it but still have to go anyway. Heeeeh.

1. I miss fri and sat night Starbucks session with boyfriend.
2. Damn broke now. Most of my money are spend on cab and cigg. Tmd! Gonna quit these bad habits. =x
3. Counting down 3 days to sister birthday and 11 days to mine!
4. All I want for my birthday is a new handphoneeeeee :(
5. Why must guys go for NS? Worst is they're staying in the camp. %^&#$!@#

2008-12-01T22:45:00.002+08:00

Last night I've read a few young mummies blog and decided to blog about this. Yes, these young mummies are around my age, 17-20. Really pei fu them. Is like so young and becoming a mummie? Having a baby is a huge responsibility. Its not like playing with a barbie doll, you can just throw them away if you don't like it. Anyway, they wrote stories about their labour experience and makes me so.. eeewk~ From their waterbag burst till they're in labour. Pain, contractions, epidural.. etc. The whole process, I just can't imagine it. I think I will just faint, cry, kb, kick, whack and bite. Laughs!

2008-11-30T22:46:00.008+08:00

Back from chalet. Very tired. Left hand muscle damn pain due to not sleeping well. Ate quite alot and I know I'm putting on weight. Urgh! Taking care of the 2 babies really not easy especially coaxing them to sleep. Okay, tired now. Bye.

13 more days to birthday and freedom. Just bear with it. For the next one week, just fucking study the whole book of Menu Planning and Food Cost. Phew~ Wonder when will this nightmare end. But before that gonna go out with boyfriend one day and get that sister-clinton birthday present. Ehh sis, you should be happy that during my exams period I still go out and get present for you hor! Make sure you return me one present on my birthday.

Its been a couple of months since you left my heart behind
cryin` all my tears out as my eyes becomin` blind
nothing feels the same cuhz i`m so used to being held
friends would be concerned of me but never would i tell
that i was gettin` hurt by the only one i ever loved
the one who was created to be sent to me from above
i still don`t know what went wrong, or why we had to end
not only were you my baby but you were my best friend
and now it seems like i`ve lost everything i ever had
everything worth livin` for, flyin away from my hands
livin` everyday, questioning myself the same thing
you left without a reason, left me here reminicin

xoxoxo
remember the days we used to share
when you told me that always nd forever you would care
now you left me alone, holding on to the phone
hopin` things would go back to how it was long ago
tell me why
what made you decide to leave me back
tell me why
there was nothing that you, you didn`t have
tell me why

back when we was younger, we both each made a promise
tellin` each other that we would always be honest
of how we felt, what we thought, and soon that day came
you took my hand, asked me out, and walked together in the rain
we spent hours on the fone, we were close like white on rice
playin around, asking me to one day be your wife
when they saw you, they saw me standing right next to you
matchin` everyday, matchin` clothes, matchin` hat and shoes
always dedicating songs we hear to each other
always thinking that all of those days would last forever
tell me why everything had to come to this
you dont understand, there`s so much things that i miss

whatever happened to the promises you made
whatever happened to the future you wanted to create
now it`s all down the drain, all the time we spent, wasted
whenever we had problems, we had always fixed and saved it
so why the change of heart, tell me why are we apart
when you had told me before that you loved me since the start
tell me why you suddenly wanna leave our past behind
baby all i`m asking you is to please tell me why
(tell me why, tell me why)

theres so much pain for me to hide inside
but you don`t even notice so theres no use to hide
i miss the feeling u gave me wen you looked into my eyes
and now when i remember the moment all i do is cry
the day you left, baby, you took my dreams with you
i can`t even rebuild them cuhz i`m standin alone without you
stop giving me all the stories, cuhz i know that they're lies
jus open your heart, look into my eyes, and tell me why

xoxoxo

2008-11-28T23:18:00.007+08:00

Practical yesterday was screwed up. Fuckkkk. Share cab with Lydia, Cynthia and Louis then go out again and meet boyfriend & co with Edwin. Qiaoyan gonna go back China, never come back. So we went to the airport and sent her off. Really don't bear to see her go. Afterall I'm in the same primary and secondary school with her. Supper at Yaku Kaya, slack, cab home. Reach home already 2.30am but still can't sleep. Most of my money are spend on taking cab!! Omgg.

"明知道爱你不会有结果
为何还如此执著
为你付出所有
你竟不顾一切就走
明知道爱你只是继续错
为何还如此脆弱
已经习惯有你
已经不能将你摆脱"

Sorry to make you dissapointed. You won't know how hard is it to quit. The urge and temptation keep coming. But for you, I'll try. Because I really like you. (:

2008-11-26T23:24:00.004+08:00

2 projects down. Now left with 2 practical, 3 theory papers and I'm free. Wohoo! Yes yes, 13 December. Best is its saturday. Boyfriend specially took leave just to celebrate the big day with me. Haas. & sister birthday on next friday. Another big hole in pocket. Very long never get together with them already. Miss them loadsssss.

That's why you go away - MLTR

"I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know "

One of my favourite English song. The sweet melody really melts my heart. (:
& Shayne Ward gonna be my favourite singer. His song lyrics really damn superb.

2008-11-25T00:06:00.003+08:00

Just cab back from Grace house doing project. But now still must continue doing it. *Faint* Never ending project work. But its better than F&N coursework anyway. Can't wait for the chalet this coming friday. Damn. Hope I'm not putting on anymore weight.

Good night peopleeeeeeeeeeee. I'm going to rush my project now.
& leave a tag at my tagbox. It looks so fking dead.

2008-11-22T19:01:00.002+08:00

My blog is dying ever since I've lost my precious handphone. No more pictures uhh. And my viewership is dropping. Blah!

I hate gingerbread smell. Damn horrible. Anybody who puts it in his/her mouth is an idiot. Both projects will be due on next friday. Sian! And now I must also find a dessert for Elaborate Sweets practical exam. Nabei. So much things how to complete by tml? And I should be going to Sophia's birthday party at a pub at Boat Quay but I never go. Wth! Exams are tying me down. =(

Happy Birthday Sophia! (:

2008-11-20T00:30:00.002+08:00

Yesterday IS was damn fun. The whole class is mad. Okays, and I think I'm the one who went crazy first. Drew the hospital cross or whatever shit on the chef paper cap and pretend I'm a nurse. With black marker some more. Cut out those paper cardboard that are used for gingerbread house and went around sticking people. Ehh, I'm being childish. See Grace and Huiwen blog for the lame photos. Wahahaha.

Feel very headache after reaching home. Pop 2 pills, chat on phonee and sleep. Late for IS for 20mins. I should stop the habit of going late to school.

2008-11-17T19:41:00.003+08:00

Yes, I've changed my blog url. (:

I've got 13 unknown MSN contacts since I've joined WLNY again on friday night. *Faint* Best is most of them are 20 years old plus cannnnn!! Not intrested to know them. Lols! And and and, boys top 3 favourite question to ask is, "Are you still a virgin? How many ex bf you have? Are you single or attached now?" Walaoooo ehh. Bui tahan. Nowadays boys are getting more 38 uhh. Is like so none of their business. =.=

Ohh, so random. Okays, going to research my Menu Planning now. Byee.

2008-11-15T01:16:00.003+08:00

1. Meet with boyfriend AGAIN and walk around Orchard .
2. Smoking is hard to quit . Sian .
3. Gonna get new mascara soon . Fake lash is damn freaking hard to put it PROPERLY .
4. Hate girls with blue eyeshadow . It looks so fucking auntie to me .
5. Need new bags & shoes . But need a new handphone more .
6. My birthday reaching in about a month ! Heeheehee .
7. I want to get rid of my flabby arms , legs and 3 month pregnant stomach .
8. I'm going put on makeup to school everyday . If not I will look horrible with a dead face .
9. I've got violent crazy classmates like Grace & Cynthia .
10. School vending machine doesn't sells souffle . Lols .

Don't try to temp me by asking me to buy things or going to places that need money . Wait till I buy new handphone first then say . Damn tired now . Bye .

2008-11-13T23:31:00.002+08:00

I hate my friends for bluffing me!! Huiwen and Cynthia gang up and bluff me that school has new vending machine that sells souffle. But the innocent cum stupid me really believe them. Yayayaya, if its really like this, next time we don't need to bake anymore. Just buy it. And Sophia says school smoking corner has vending machine that sell ciggrates. But it doesn't accept notes, just coins. Lol. Who will bring 10 $1 coins to school just to buy cigg? -.-

"I would never find another lover
Sweeter than you, sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover
More precious than you, more precious than you"

2008-11-12T23:34:00.003+08:00

From monday till today, Shatec has this blood donation drive and Huiwen donated her 450ml blood! Lol. Such a brave girl. I think I will faint mannxz. A few years back went for some blood test and doctor says my brothers including my dad have the H duno what low blood shit thing so we cannot donate. And also if I want to donate, I'm still sweet 16. Need parental consent. Wahahaha. (:

Meetup with boyfriend after her work and we went to Bugis. Walk over to Sim Lim to see hp. And C905 is not really a very chio phone. So should I get SE T700 or China Hello Kitty hp???

2008-11-12T13:24:00.004+08:00

In school now, waiting till 2.45 for Food Cost to start. Yawns*

Meet up with boyfriend & co yesterday after school. Tmall, smoke, slack. Then went to Paya Lebar with boyfriend and her mum in the evening. Brought new foundation and a hand duno what shit for $51. *Faint* No money for new hp already. =(

Ytd take SE brochure & saw this very cool phone, C905. Omg! 8.1mp camera. Boyfriend say we 5 of them shld get the phone tgt. Guess the price gonna be very nice also. =.=

2008-11-10T19:09:00.007+08:00

1. On phone with Xinyi the 38 till 3am last night.
2. Cafe Cartel for lunch with Cynthia, Louis & Yongcheng.
3. Didn't buy anything for myself from M'sia ytd.
4. Collected my sim card from Starhub today. So I'm now using back my 9271****.
5. Think I'm going to buy some act cute Hello Kitty china hp soon cos its cheaper.
6. Finally let him know how I'm feeling already. Phew~
7. I'm going to be the girl I used to behave in the past.
8. I have a thousand reasons to smile. (:

"I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you"

2008-11-08T23:38:00.004+08:00

Last night was on phone with Xinyi the 38. Very long never chat with her already. She's forever the same, pervert like me. The hum sup po! Lols. Miss you 38! Got time go out together okays. Don't say you lazy. :D

Going to JB tml for one day shopping. Abit don't feel like going but its shopping. Damn. I'm going to relieve all the unhappiness in my heart by spending my dad's money. Teeheehee.

GPA for last semester was 3.38. Clever, stupid or luck? Never studied at all and still can go shopping with those 38's. Really miss those sec sch days when we hang out together. Compared to now, I'm such a happy & carefree girl in the past.

& Byebye.

2008-11-07T01:15:00.002+08:00

I don't know why my tears are on the way flowing out when I've read a girl blog about her friend died in a car accident. I can feel the pain and torture she's going through. Its so hard to believe your good friend just died without saying a goodbye to you. I wonder how my friends will feel if I suddenly leave them one day.

Will they miss me? Will they bother to come to my wake and see me for the last time no matter how busy they are? Will they always remember my smile and the girl who always talk so much craps with them? But I don't want them to cry. I know I will want to see their beautiful smile for the last time. I want to remember each and everyone of you. I want them to be strong. I want them to remember I an angel in their eyes and not a irritating girl who always complain.

And to my both parents. Sorry if I'm a very bad girl who always disobey what you all said. Sorry that I always talked back and argue with you. I'm not a good daughter. I never wished your happy birthday or mother's/father's day before in life. But on my birthday, your will always buy me a cake and celebrate with me. To my dearest dad. Thank you for working so hard supporting me and buy what I want even though how bad I treated you. Thank you mummie, for giving birth to me. Sorry to let you suffer for 9mths and end up having a unfilial daughter. You both will always be my best parents. In my next life, I will still want to be your daughter. I love you both.

People, you are all important to me. I really treasure each and everyone of you. Even though I may still act like a little girl, but I will learn to grow up. If one day I'm gone forever in your life, may you click on Nov'08 archieve and read this entry. But don't tear too much okays. And do let my parents read it too. I want them to know how much I love them.

Unknowingly, my tears had stared to flow down my face when I'm posting this. Used up alot of tissue paper already. Time to sleep and reflect what good things I've done in my entire life. Good night.

2008-11-06T23:02:00.004+08:00

I'm still very bui song with my hp getting lost. I always wake up feeling very angry. Bloody slut. Let me know who she is I'll cut and slit open her vagina. *middle finger*

Ever since I lost my phone, nothing goes well. Having a damn bad mood swing. I don't know why. That phone is too precious to me already. It contains videos of boyfriend & co slacking under void decks & baked product in school. Wait till I'm free I'll go down to the police station and make a report. Although its useless, but make a report also song wad. Maybe she sell my phone and police and let the police trace her down. Now I see all girls studying DHM & DTM sibei bui song. The slut is in one of them!!!

Very tired now after standing 7hrs in school. Made logcake & I can't take pictures with it. Fuck. Although Huiwen took it, but I'm lazy to upload anyway. Share cab with Lydia home. Bye.

2008-11-04T20:27:00.004+08:00

I'm going to curse and swear again.

Shit that hp stealer. She's such a slut. She damn pro la. Steal it when I'm changing. To get my hp without contact cost ard $500+ okays. Ccb. She really tan tio lor. Now my contacts & photos are gone. Get replacement for sim card also no use. So what if Starhub gave me $100 voucher to buy a new hp. Even the lousiest hp cao cao also need $200 leh. And I'm using such a good phone. Who will want to downgrade their phone sia. Nabei. Gonna kill this bitch if I who is she. I know my phone has 5 mega pix camera. Please don't pollute it with your disgusting slut face pictures. Damn. I miss my ke ai de hp alot. He's my boyfriend and meant alot to me. I don't wanna use those stupid spare phone I have at home!! Any 20 kind souls willing to give me $10 each to buy new phone??

Hope this slut..
1. Get buang by motobike when she cross the road.
2. Choke on fishbones and fishball.
3. Heels get trap & broke in the drain.
4. Slip & fall when walking.
5. Drunk & get rape by bangalah.
6. My phone get hang when she's using it.
7. Walk under void deck and a flowerpot hit her head.
8. If she's smoking in school, let the bird shit drop on her head.
9. Cannot graduate from Shatec.
10. Let the school find out and catch her. Immediate 20 d.p & get expelled.

Sorry if I'm very mean. I know there will be karma if you say people bad things. But this slut steal my hp first hor!! How to forgive these kind of ppl. Worst is I don't even know who she is. -.-

I also know my English very broken in this whole entry. But I really qi dao bao leh. No time to correct it. I just type what I'm thinking. Sorry my dear friends, your ears have to suffer my kb-ing for the whole day. =x

2008-11-04T13:25:00.002+08:00

My hp kena stolen in school. Fuck that slut/bitch/whore. Confirm guarantee chop chop is a girl that stole it. Lost it during when changing for practical. Tmd de qian da!! Hp is the most important thing to me and bo dai bo ji its lost. Wtf!! My cute little touch screen Silver LG Viewty with pink casing, a little dented at the back and my name keychain is gone, FOREVER!! I need a new phonee!! And I still haven terminate my lineeee. Walaoooo. Suay. No wonder ytd my right 'yan pi' keep jumping. So this is the suay thing that happened. Omggggxxzz!!!! CCB. Den oso very funny. Nvr steal my mp3 or my clear casing for putting money and cards. 438!!

I'll blog and scold again when I'm at home. Bye.

2008-11-03T00:25:00.005+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday to Ngaiyun-brother!

Hope you will have a great day in school with your friends. Rmb to put some eggwhite on your face for free facial. Heehee. ;)

2008-11-01T20:33:00.007+08:00

"I gave you all you desired
All that you needed
Boy I provided
I let you into my head
Into my bed
And that's a privilege"

IS for thursday is Chocolate Feullentine cake. Nice to eat and nice to grow fat. The whole cake is full of chocolate so can you imagine how fattening it is. But must wait till monday then can un-mould the cake. Hope I won't start digging the cake like a hungry ghost. Its a very sinful thing. =/

Yesterday celebrated Ngaiyun-brother birthday at East Coast. Monday then is his birthday but we celebrated early. Boyfriend & co with Qiaoyan and Edwin;Manzoo. Did the usual things we normally slack. Drink, cards and bla. They brought Raspberry Vodlka. Smell nicee but taste like medicine. Yuckks. Reach home at 4am. Best is my mum thought I reach home ard 12+. Heeheehee.

Forget what this is called. Its the base of the cake & its damn freaking nice!

Cake!

Piping the Mini choux paste.

Edwin; Manzoo!

Clinton-sister house.

From his bedroom view. In real life the lights are really damn chio.

Brother first surprise muffin cake. The cute elephant is a ring!

Underpass to East Coast.

Lagoon hawker center.

More pictures at Boyfriend & Manzoo hp. Will upload more soon. :)

2008-10-30T23:52:00.005+08:00

To my dearest Grace-partner and Huiwen-sister.

Don't be so pissed off lah! Little children doesn't know what they're doing. So cannot blame them. Concentrate on tml Menu Planning test ba. ;)

I will be strong, even if it all goes wrong.

2008-10-29T22:49:00.011+08:00

Ever since I've start school in Shatec, I've gain back the 2-3kg of fats which I've lost during holidays. Tmd! Eat pastries, cakes, fast food and bla. One recipe of French Buttercream consist of 500g butter!! Walao. How can don't grow fat? So now I've got to spend so much money on slimming products. Lol. Hope it helps baaa.

Damn. I'm just a useless girl. My words are bigger than my actions. Talk so big, but nothing come out. Its time to do some self-reflection. When I say I'm gonna forget about you, I really mean it. But each time you talk to me, I just fall hard. I turn soft. I don't wanna let go. I'm afraid to lose. My heart hurts. You're twisting me around. I don't know what to do. I'm lost. Someone please slap me awake. I hate putting up a strong front. I want to cry my heart out. I need a shoulder to lean on. I'm weak. And the worst part is, we're used to having each other, not love. Fooyoh! Madeline Goh, you can seriously go bang your fucking brainless head on the wall already.

Don't know why the fuck I'm posting such things on blog. So unlike me. Hmm, whatever. I just need to have my boyfriend & co its enough. Muahaha. My life will be nothing without them. Uhh, and also my ex classmates. Teehee.

2008-10-27T00:37:00.004+08:00

Walao! Why is my tagbox so gam pua dead huh? Where have everybody gone to? V&Z again!! Omg!! I can list the name of these people who always view and zhao. ALWAYS I mean. Cos, I have Nuffnang. Wahahaha. Ohh, positive & negative comments are all accepted. Say I'm fat, ugly, short and bla. It all doesn't affect me. Cos, I have high self esteem. Uhh, reminds me of Adam's Khoo workshop. And also I'm used to friends calling me names and all these. Even the most unpleasant words I've also heard before. So everything became very natural. Infact I should thank God for giving me such wonderful friends. They make me stronger to what I'm now. No longer a young girl who sits down and cry for nothing. Only true friends will say more bad and negative things rather than por you saying your good things. Laughs! All grown up already. :D

Gonna lock myself up in my room later in the afternoon doing Food Cost homework, study Menu Planning & POB. All are so damn impt lor! Not like sec sch, don't like the subject den don't need to study. Sian. Test are coming up. Gosh!

Cousin gf chiwawa dog. Damn. I don't know where I get the courage getting so near to this freak. Played with her, step on her tail, beat her. Lols! But she's very shy. She knows I'm taking picture of her and she always turn her head away very quickly. Lalalala~ Whatever! I think I'm crazy. Gonna watch Ming Zhong liaooo. Ahyi lend me the vcd. Teehee. Byexbuai.

2008-10-26T00:34:00.002+08:00

Friday, Bugis with Grace & Huiwen after school. Lessons were short. Brought 3 pair eyelash, black eyelash glue and one Dorothy Perkins kisslock pouch. $9 only. Cheap, cheap. Uhh, and we took neoprints too. Haas. The eyelashes are making me damn pek cek. I don't know how to put. Omg!

Just now go Bugis again with boyfriend & co except Clinton-sister. Never brought anything. Urgh! Go out never buy things very bui song. But boyfriend gave me a bottle of body mist she brought from M'sia. Okay lor, consider I got bring something home. Lalalala~

Pepper lunch with Grace & Huiwen.

Shopping items for the whole of this week. Seriously broke. =/

Byeexz.

2008-10-22T21:27:00.003+08:00

1. I spend $62.30 for the past 2 days on 2 pairs of Perlini Silver earrings, one necklace chain, two pendants, one hp strap, one pasta mania lunch and one Mac delivery lunch. I'm broke!!

2. Practical for this week are damn freaking longggg.

3. I have a bad habit of tripping myself in school corridoor with my crocs shoes.

4. M by Mariah Carey perfume smells damn horrible.

5. M)phosis doesn't sells the black wristlet I want anymore. :(

6. Food Cost is killing me once again. Why am I so bloody stupid in doing maths?

7. I'm having bad mood swings for the past few days.

8. I can't stop my nose from smelling my Escada Moonsparkle. Feel like spraying everything inside my mouth. Lol.

9. Feel that I'm an irritating ass and more people are begining to hate me. Uhh, whatever.

10. Off to watch Hotshot. Bye.

2008-10-19T14:02:00.004+08:00

"能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我不能够不能够不爱了"

"请告诉他我不爱他
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉他我还想他
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答"

吴克群 & 林俊杰 new album are coming out soon! Wahahahaha.
Gonna download them soon. :D

I'm broke!! I need more money!!
Hate my hp bill. =/

2008-10-18T19:41:00.008+08:00

I'm having a big head today. Sibei unlucky can!! 11 plus, mummie kb me wake up already. I never bake todaeee. No ingredients how to bake? Anyway, this is not the main thing. I spend my whole afternoon cracking my brain doing the Food Cost homework. And many many many things happened. Here it goes.

One bangalah at my house downstairs don't know do what shit thing, keep banging and knocking alot of wooden planks till it made a sibei loud sound. This goes on for around 15mins? My head start to hurts. Then my mum teach my younger brother ting xie with a damn loud voice and this last for don't know how many hours. Ohyea, I'm use to it anyway. My block opposite got people drilling things onto the wall or whatever shit they're doing. Tmd!! Really 气到爆 lor!! I'm trying really hard to do my maths. Make so much noise for the whole afternoon till I can't do it. And I'm having a really bad headache. Wtf these people are trying to do?? Its maths I'm doing lehh. My CMI subject. And this is so accounts with so much caculation. End up I only do 1 question and leave the other 2 blank. Really no mood to doooo. Lie on bed and nap for awhile. Because of this, I didn't go to Starbucks with boyfriend & co. Ewwkkk. 气死我了!!!

Anyway,
Happy 17th Birthday, Lim Jia Jie! :D

XOXOXO

I want Manchester United white jersey.
I want those perfume listed at my wishlist.
I want my Havaianas to arrive asap.
I want him to treat me better.
I want to get Fred Perry bag & polo tee.
I want more Perlini Silver accessories.

(: (: (: (: (:

2008-10-17T22:06:00.014+08:00

2 projects coming up!
Menu planning and Gingerbread house!! Sian!! Gonna be REAL BUSY SOON.

Its weekends again! Still haven plan what to do. Maybe tml evening go Starbucks slack with boyfriend & co. But mummie wants me to bakeee tml morning. Wth! I very lazy lehh.

My hp bill came today. $74.56!! Omgg!! I got a nice nagging session. Blame me for using the internet without knowing it cost so much. And my outgoing calls adds up to 198mins??!! Lol!! The extra 98mins cost $28 le hor! Walan ehh. Okay, I've learn my lesson. Never call ppl for more than 5 mins. Hope my dad pays the bill lor. If not I've got to fork out my own money. =(

Yong cheng, Huiwen & Jasmine at the back. Lols.

Don't know how Graceee take until so blur. But very cool uhh. My longer part of hair got colourrr. :D

MacDonals during break time anyoneee?

1. My ATM card almost got stuck in the machine at Bukit Batok MRT station.
2. Mummie told me ytd that one of my blouse got stolen. =.=
3. Pimples, pimples and more pimples are popping out on my face. Omggxxzz!
4. I want to go to other outlets of Perlini's Silver to look at their collection of earrings.
5. When can I repierce my nose for the 3rd time againn???
6. I hate Food Cost Control. Its driving me crazy.
7. I'm growing fatter, fatter and fatter.
8. Its been 4 days since I've touch any stick.
9. Craving for 奶油螃蟹 & Starbucks Mocha frapp now!!
10. I'm going to watch 命中注定我爱你 soon.

Please be mindful of your words when you're talking. Don't be so blunt and direct till it hurts a person feeling. Especially when the person is, your close friend. (:

2008-10-16T22:42:00.004+08:00

These few days very free so can keep blogging yea. Heehee. I know there are people coming to my blog everyday. Nuffang is great! But they click, read and zhao without leaving a tag. Omg! Okay, enough of kaobei-ing. I'm damn tiredddd after standing for the whole afternoon.

I forget what is the food name we baked today. But it looks like custard right? Think is called creme brulee or something. Left my recipe sheet in the locker. -.-

Mango creme brulee topped with mango cubes and raspberry.

Caramelized brown sugar on top with the help of blowtorch!

Chef's creation. From left to right:
Vanilla creme brulee, red beans & sago, green tea creme brulee, mango brulee.

The red beans looks like some shit and the green tea burlee looks like some green slimy thingy. Eeewk. I hate green tea!!

My Perlini's Silver cleaning kit finally arrived! ^^

"Why don't you love me
The way I loved you
It feels so crazy
Cause I dunno
What I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
Cause I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna
Stick around
Then, baby
Forget about me"

2008-10-15T23:54:00.003+08:00

Eclairs baked in school today.

Last thursday apple almond flan before baking.

After product. :)

"Wish that I Could move on
Can't let go It's too strong
Just like that And then you're gone
Is this how You wanted it to be
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears Right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery"

2008-10-14T20:13:00.007+08:00

Sister condo toilet. Very cool uhh. Majiam at 5 star hotel. Haas.

2 sisters! :D

Demo lessons.

Love them. ;)

"你说我像一个孩子要一辈子

做你的新娘子

烛光里为我讲故事温暖一屋子

你打开幸福的盒子就一下子

泪水温暖地放肆

许我在你的生命里傻傻住一辈子"

2008-10-14T13:57:00.004+08:00

I'm in school rotting nowww. Next lesson starts at 2.45. Omg. Still got another 45mins to go. I'm boredddd.

Yesterday after school went home and then meet boyfriend, Nic and Grace at 201 bus stop. One xia suay thing happened. Not gonna post up here. Lols. We went to Clinton-sister condo at East Coast. Ngaiyun-brother then joined us later. Play the poker card game we played on sat night. Diao luh. Another xia suay thing happened AGAIN. Slack till 7.30 den go off. Next day still got school so must go home early. Sian!

Feel that I'm always enjoying and slacking my life. Going out in the evening, Starbucks with boyfriend, and of cos shopping till I'm broke. What if my dad is poor uhh? Omg. I think I will die. No handphone, no mp3, no psp, no aircon, no food, no computer, no shopping, no crabs. Okay, my feihua alot. Now economy very bad, so must try to save a little. Off for lessons. Byeexz.

2008-10-12T22:44:00.004+08:00

Omg! Don't know why my head damn freaking pain. Side effect of not smoking? Not so kua zhang leh. Should be never sleep well these few days. & I'm not going to smoke my money in the air anymore. One puff means headache one time. Jialat. Gonna call boyfriend & co now. Bye.

Friends are more important than anything else. (:

2008-10-12T00:21:00.006+08:00

I can never hit the pubs. I don't know how to drink liquor/beer/wine. The smell really piss me off. Ngaiyun-brother brought this 40% Bacardi. Even Nicholas-sister mix it with coke I still can smell the very strong alcohol. Its disgusting okay. And then Grace come afterwards. We played a game using poker cards. Damn funny siol! Sister drink damn alot till he got drunk and vomit. But I can't help him home with them. Mummy damn bui song with me for going out every evening and reaching home "late". Lols. I want freedom!!!!

2008-10-11T17:03:00.009+08:00

Overdue photos taken with boyfriend, sisters and brother at Orchard on Tuesday.

UNO! Omggxxzz~!! The green part of the box looks so much like Gucci Envy Me 2 box. Haas.

Yesterday ton at boyfriend house. Went over at 10 plus then ngaiyun-brother come down and slack. Stupid nicholas-sister stay at home sleep don't want come down. Okays, I know he is tired. Sit at void deck till 11 plus then went up boyfriend house. Had 3 sticks of ice mint within 2 hours till my head damn pain. We called MacDonals delievery and it came within 15 mins. 5kg gained. Slept soon after eating. Omg!!

Reach home around 3 plus and I start doing my Food Cost homework. Bet this is the first time I worked so hard on Maths. So accounts lor. Was struggling in school yesterday when doing it but now I get hold on it, damn easy already. Haas.

Later at night gonna meet them again. Got to bus till 201 there. Brother gonna bring liquor. Wahahahaha.

WHY AM I NOT LIVING NEAR TMART OR 201???!!!! HIAX.

2008-10-10T00:49:00.002+08:00

Practical in afternoon till 7.30pm. Omg! Train to Pasir Ris and walk to Downtown East. Meet 2 sisters and brother. Boyfriend came down after that. Because the whole 4N2'07 is having a class gathering dinner at Sakura, saw them at the arcade also. Tmd!! I can't go because I have schoooool. And also don't want to waste money. Slack at one of the void deck and cab homeee. Thats all. Byeexz.

2008-10-07T23:21:00.002+08:00

I understand why the fook I can't access to hotmail already. Bcos of some bloody Singtel problems lor. -.-

Just now after school go down Orchard meet boyfriend, sisters and brother. Fun going out with them. Next day got school so can't stay out long. Sian! I have my first stick of cigg in my whole life today! Wahaha. Always wanted to learn but I very stupid. And in one night I actually "blow" 3 sticks of UNO away. Niceee onee madelineeee! Make sure you don't get addicted to it uhh. Loads of pictures to upload. Wait till boyfriend send me ba. Byeeexxzzzzz.

2008-10-05T22:11:00.004+08:00

WHY THE HECK I CANT OPEN AND DELETE EMAILS HUH?

Yay! I've ordered Havaianas flippies for $26 online! Half price of what NUM is selling. Wahahaha. Happy sio! Aim it since sec 3? Never get it cos its really damn expensive. $49.90 for a pair of flippies. Oh gosh!

Alright, I'm fucking cash tight and need money desperately. I want alot of things!! My bday is in 2 months time. Please save abit more and look at "my wants" list. Thank euu the beri much.

2008-10-04T21:52:00.002+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday Haowei! :)

Last night talk on phone with Nengli-boyfriend, Ngaiyun-brother, Nicholas-sister and Clinton-sister. I love my sisters! Lol. Crap from 1 plus to 5am. From OCH to red house, clubbing, toning, drinking, smoking and sex. Haah! Miss them so much. :D

2008-10-03T23:50:00.005+08:00

Never leave your hp in vibration or ringing mode when sleeping. Damn. First is part time bf called when I'm sleeping on tuesday night. Really damn tired so I slept at 8pm. At 12.30am, hp start to sing song. The second time is Clinton prank call at 2am with Nicholas voice I think. Too tired to bother who is the person. Omg!! Kill them uhh! Sleep is damn important to me hor!

Fruit flan cake bake in school today. Damn ugly cos of limited fruits provided. Eeewwk.

Every friday gonna be a long and tiring day. 8.15am practical, 2.15pm theory till 7pm. Tmd! Can die. But now saturday no school le. Wohoo! Gonna enjoy myself. :D

2008-09-28T13:37:00.008+08:00

Damn boliao. So I'm going to entertain myself with some pictures.

My love for Perlini's silver!
Uhh, I've aim a ring at P.S again. Wahahaha. Although its like any other normal ring, but still very chio leh. Nengli, wait till we've got money den buy tgt worx. $17 only. Laughs!

Pendant from P.S but not the chain.

Star anklet.

Mesh star braclet.

World's number 1 fragance, Escada Moonsparkle.
Never leave home without this. Heeheehee.
The best thing is 100ml for $62 which I get it online. Cheaper than retail shops! :D

Apple pie that I bake ytd after my mum's ultimate nagging. Make my ear bui tahan so I spend my whole afternoon in the kitchen. Crust looks white b'cos of the light. But overall still quite ok.

My mango mirror cake that is baked in school few weeks ago. Heeh.

Won't be blogging that much when school start tml.
Off to watch Hotshot.
Byeeexxxzzzzz.

My dear special friend (I still rmb what I use to call you hor!), please get your ass back to S'pore asap. Its been one week you've got stuck in China. Faster come back leh! I miss you... & your nagging. Teeheeeee.

2008-09-27T02:29:00.004+08:00

Yeo Nengli!!!

蓝球火几好笑很多下leh!

言承训 and 小猪是几帅几可爱一下，两下，三下，四

下，五下哦!

Wahahaha. Got insomnia osoh nvm liao. Lol!

2008-09-27T00:25:00.006+08:00

I fuckingly had insomnia last night. Use comp till 2am, called Nengli and we chatted till 3am. Then I lie on bed till 4.45am listening to mp3, played psp till 6 until my head and eyes start to hurt and I slept. Tmd! Sibei pek cek. Lie on bed then can't sleep. 12.30pm mummy kb me wake up liao. Grrrrr..!!! I need sleeping pills!! And because of this, my face start to pop out pimple-like-rashes. Omg!! I think tonight I'm going to have insomnia again. Sigh.

Wanted to go Pasir Ris pierce nose with Xinyi in the evening. But this bitch slept till 7pm then wake up. Eeeewkk!! Slap your face uhh darlinkkk!!

Meet Nengli 7 plus at Tampines MRT. I walk to MRT station from my house for 30 min hor! But not really that tired. We go polish our jewellery at Perlini's Silver and had KFC for dinner. Another 2 pound gained. Sian! Then walk around Tmall digest the food in stomach so got space for Starbucks. Lol. Want to buy bracelet so we go to P.S again. $18 only. Ji mei yi xia lor!! Love P.S to the max! Cheap and chio. I also have their pendant and anklet. Everytime I go out, cao cao at least must buy something home. If not I very BUI SONG!! Heeh. Then its Starbucks time! Raspberry cream frapp. Niceee~ Played her DJMax till 9626 combo lor!! Omg! Mine is like only 3k plus. Reach home 11.45. Still early leh. If my dad nvr call and nag sure stay longer. I'm no longer 15 years old hor! Must reach home by 10pm. -.-

Sorry for the super long post. Byeeexxxzzzzz.